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2019 in Review
6 years ago
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In eternity, where there is no time, nothing can grow. Nothing can become. Nothing changes. So death created time to grow the things that it would kill and you are reborn but into the same life that you've always been born into.
Time to piss on the ashes of this year. It's not Christmas, but I'm in the mood so let's get to it.
2019 was...better in a lot of ways than previous years, but that's a really, REALLY low bar...I mean so low you have to dig for it. A lot of things have been left up in the air and will probably be as such for the foreseeable future. It's been a pretty bad year too, honestly. The workplace has steadily gotten much worse, I've honestly and sincerely now consider myself estranged from most of my extended family. I had a facebook profile, which I had for close friends who I had no other ways of maintaining contact, and family. I decided it wasn't worth keeping my account active after I found out my uncle, aunt, and cousins were in the same town as me (talking pretty small town here, actually more like three micro towns very close together), I had reached out to one of my cousins, who I considered myself close to up till that point, and told him several times where I was living, invited him over, got told "I'm pretty busy right now, but talk to me about it again in a couple of weeks." But that...yeah that event seemed to make it pretty clear that I could just go fuck myself. So I got rid of my facebook account, since there's no need to have it. It was actually very liberating.
My idiot brother is still an idiot, though he seems to be trying to make improvements, including breaking up with the ho. That said, she's still got her cunty little claws in him to some degree and it's because he's too stupid to tell her "no". On the plus side, if he gets back together with her, I have zero reason to not be an asshole.
In more recent developments, one of my other aunts had her second stroke in as many years earlier this week. I've noticed this time of the year often heralds bad news, so I'm honestly ready to write off the Christmas holiday entirely and start ignoring it. I wasn't even able to get my family a decent christmas list (which they only got because they kept bugging me for it) and part of that is most of the things I legit want/need aren't things they'd be able to afford, so...not much of a point. Maybe my feelings will change by next year, but I'm not sure. I'm going to plan on skipping the holiday entirely.
2019 was...better in a lot of ways than previous years, but that's a really, REALLY low bar...I mean so low you have to dig for it. A lot of things have been left up in the air and will probably be as such for the foreseeable future. It's been a pretty bad year too, honestly. The workplace has steadily gotten much worse, I've honestly and sincerely now consider myself estranged from most of my extended family. I had a facebook profile, which I had for close friends who I had no other ways of maintaining contact, and family. I decided it wasn't worth keeping my account active after I found out my uncle, aunt, and cousins were in the same town as me (talking pretty small town here, actually more like three micro towns very close together), I had reached out to one of my cousins, who I considered myself close to up till that point, and told him several times where I was living, invited him over, got told "I'm pretty busy right now, but talk to me about it again in a couple of weeks." But that...yeah that event seemed to make it pretty clear that I could just go fuck myself. So I got rid of my facebook account, since there's no need to have it. It was actually very liberating.
My idiot brother is still an idiot, though he seems to be trying to make improvements, including breaking up with the ho. That said, she's still got her cunty little claws in him to some degree and it's because he's too stupid to tell her "no". On the plus side, if he gets back together with her, I have zero reason to not be an asshole.
In more recent developments, one of my other aunts had her second stroke in as many years earlier this week. I've noticed this time of the year often heralds bad news, so I'm honestly ready to write off the Christmas holiday entirely and start ignoring it. I wasn't even able to get my family a decent christmas list (which they only got because they kept bugging me for it) and part of that is most of the things I legit want/need aren't things they'd be able to afford, so...not much of a point. Maybe my feelings will change by next year, but I'm not sure. I'm going to plan on skipping the holiday entirely.
ConnorH
~connorh
Dang. I hope next year is better for you.
ConnorCat
~connorcat
OP
Not likely. To be fair though, I think when I make the changes I need to, things will start getting much better.
ConnorH
~connorh
Okay. *hugs
