Hello all,

Life has been a little hectic lately. I'm currently really anxious because I got sued. That's... something. I've never been sued before, so I admit I'm a little terrified, and I don't have a lawyer because this was quite short notice. I got served with the papers last week, and the hearing is scheduled for next week. The papers are legitimate, and I can't dispute the claim, so my options are go to court or settle. I've tried settling, and I have a recorded verbal agreement that the other side has already acted upon, but I haven't gotten any confirmation that the case has been dismissed or settled or whatever.

I think I might just have to show up to the court on the day of the hearing anyways and ask for dismissal on the grounds I have a recording of a verbal contract and they've already acted upon it.

Uh, what else...

December's been a pain as usual. Ever since December 2016, I haven't really had a good one. I didn't make it to MFF this year- last year's experience just wasn't very fun. Every MFF after the artist alley closed, I basically had nothing to do. My friends all already had plans, and I don't dance or fursuit and I don't do great in crowds, so... yeah. I want to go out with people, but I'm low-energy and my friends all crank up to 11 at cons, so I get left behind really quickly. Not fun.

What else...

Work is frustrating. My supervisor has promised us that a raise is coming, but he doesn't know when or how much, and he's already altered the terms of the raise from "Across the board, cost of living increase" to "Contingent on performance", which is leaving all of us feeling like he lied to us- several people were threatening to walk out as a group unless there was a raise because the cost of living in Denver keeps going up.

Supervisor also keeps causing us problems with how he pays for time. Instead of paying for the time we're actually there, he just pays a flat 8 hours. Arrive thirty minutes late and inconvenience everyone else? 8 hours. Stay twenty-seven minutes late to cover for a no-show? 8 hours. We're all pretty sure he's violating state and federal laws since we're hourly workers. We've all collectively stopped staying late to cover for near-daily absences on the grave shift because we know we won't get paid for staying.

And the supervisor keeps jerking us around on benefits, too. Long story short- The company offers a number of benefits, but the supervisor has actually withheld information on many of the benefits from the workers. Example benefit: Tuition reimbursement. He's never mentioned it in the fourteen months he's been there. I found out about that benefit (and others) by accident while browsing the company website.

The supervisor has also not bothered to clue us in on the company's performance incentives, because that would mean he has to do extra paperwork. Nevermind the fact a lack of performance incentives is actively crippling the site because workers are frustrated that good work goes unrecognized and bad work goes unpunished.

Honestly I'm considering getting a new job if things don't turn around soon. I've been at this place for almost two years, but I can't handle how things are going. The supervisor is negligent and neglectful to the point where it's malicious, and that's assuming he isn't doing things on purpose.

Anything else?

Well, in spite of everything that's going on, I've been slowly putting my life back together. I still have anxiety attacks, I still have days where my depression and migraines can make it nearly impossible to function, but those days are getting fewer and further between- when nothing big is happening, of course.

I've been re-writing the stories I've been working on. I know, I've been working on them for almost 2 years, I should have something to show for it. Fact is, I kept hitting blocks because I had brilliant ideas I absolutely had to try to incorporate, and after all this time I've realized that no, those ideas just won't work. So I'm going back and rewriting from scratch with a better idea of my character voices and what kind of story I want to tell, and I think that's good, even if I am not ready to publish yet.

I've been slowly working on my 3D models and my drawing as well. You may have seen a couple of my drawings a couple weeks ago. I don't always feel up to drawing, but I've felt more up to it recently than I have in a while, so hopefully I'll find the time and energy to draw more soon.

Um... Not sure what else to say. Here's hoping that 2020 will be a good year, I guess?