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Reflections 2019
6 years ago
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With the New Year literally only a few hours away, I've had a lot on my mind: What can I change? Do I need to change? What will my resolution be? The usual things. Even a lot of regrets and pain that still plague my mind and have continued to do so for the past few years. Love and loss, decisions I look back on, or choices I never got to make, battles I've lost or never had the chance to fight. Things left unsaid.
All of this still bothers me, and in all honesty, I want so badly to let it all flow away. I know most of us will do our best 'Hakuna Matata' and try to leave it all behind the moment the clock strikes Twelve, but for me all of this time has left me wondering and wishing I could fight those last few battles or speak the words left unspoken... Or find that last bit of closure I never got to have.
I want to try though, and I think that will be enough. I can't love another if I can't love myself and I've grown tired of beating myself up over things I can't control or the thoughts and assumptions of others who never took the time to know me.Feels good to get my thoughts out.
Either way, whether you love or hate me, I wish every single one of you a Happy New Year.~For those of you who have and continue to watch and support me, and even those who have become and remain my true friends, I love and appreciate every single one of you. I truly do from the bottom of my heart. You guys are seriously the best. 
I just hope that you can find it in yourself to move forwards. Know that your loved.