Happy New Year first of all, hope you guys spent the holidays well.
Been a while since I said anything here, but being on my own gave me a lot of time to think about all the personal issues again, sooo just gonna share a couple thoughts here.

First, I'm going into the new year with an actual schedule/plan all the way from January to December with goals for each month, instead of just... "forcing drawing
hours" as much as I can so that the number at the end of each month will be satisfyingly big, which, even though it feels good in the moment, just ends up in burn-outs after a while.
I want to draw in a way that makes me realize again that I started drawing because it was fun and not because I had to, and that drawing in your own style is ok even if it
doesn't look as good or professional as the style of other artists, it's all about what you yourself feel comfortable with. So, trying to be less paranoid about that stuff in the future.
Just in general I'd like to be less... panicky when it comes to drawing. Like, so often when I think about the new Schwarzpelz chapter I get very panicky about not only its contents, but
also the detail and work put into each page because I usually wanna make each panel memorable and as good as I can. Often one single panel that doesn't turn out like I imagined
can sour the experience of the whole page, and since I'm quite slow still, every page is important to me as this "one big thing every couple days", so I don't wanna mess them up.
So I want to try to be less paranoid about quality, cut some detail here and there and just develop the story.


Second, I've actually finally found a proper 2D-Animation program called OpenToonz, so finally I can try out tiny little animations. Have already watched tutorials for help
and started a tiny sketch animation myself and rendered it to see if it works, and it actually worked, sooo woof is actually excited to throw out some animations now and again.
They feel greatly different from usual drawing, which is actually a good thing since it makes for a different art-experience, so I hope the fatigue won't collect as easily in the future.
Will actually upload the first one soon after finishing it a bit more, hopefully it's gonna be... saved in the right format to be uploadable here, still am a bit unexperienced about that.


Third, I wanna get back into contact with people again, which I've said before, but still couldn't do it until now. Gonna open up Discord again, do more streams hopefully and
not take them too seriously. Streams have often been scary to me because I'm usually never watched while drawing, so it felt like I was pressured to "deliver" as an artist, show
professional sketching or... be fast and precise with every line, stuff like that. I wanna try seeing streaming as just hanging out and having fun with characters, ideas and of
course the people showing up, instead of me having to act professional as an artist.


Uhhh that's all I can think of for now. So, expect pics again, here and on patreon aaaand hope that nothing gets in the way for now.

Thanks for reading~