so, I bet you've all been wondering where I've been the last couple of weeks, well basically, I'm alive and well but I've been struggling with everything. I caught influenza B after Christmas and It weakened me to the point where I couldn't even get out of my bed, eat food, or go to work, I tried hard to motivate myself to draw a 2020 new years pic, but I had no ideas of what to draw for the occasion. the worst of my sickness has passed, all I still have is a bit of a cough, a hard time eating. but the real thing I want to let you all know is that I've hit an art block, and I've lost all motivation to draw right now, I've also been having these weird anxiety problems over absolutely nothing, like, I wake up in the morning with anxiety and a feeling of impending doom even though I have nothing to worry about or fear (what's been going on with the US and Iran isn't really helping the situation tho). I also get this anxiety while I'm driving in the morning and at night, again I have nothing to worry about since the roads I take are always calm and don't have much traffic. so I'm chalking this all up to be some kind of flu-hangover, which could be my body and nerves recovering from the flu, so it might be a while before I get back up to my normal speed and mood.

so I want to let you know I'm still alive, I'm just not at 100%

also since I'm in need of art ideas, feel free to write some suggestions down in the comments below.