Need To get this off my chest......

So 2019 christmas i was harassed by my mother (calling me names, making fun of my mental break downs) she said shed make it up to me

well today she said "drop it" so pretty much thats her way of saying yeah i harassed you now fuck off. Like i said i needed to get this off my chest my friends gave me a better christmas than them. its the fact my own blood did that to me...shit like that doesnt go away "drop it" oh its silly she says NO ITS NOT you harassed me and wont apologize to me fucking CUNT!!! sorry for my language.....im not sure if i wanna live with someone who harasses me and gets off with it.........