Well, its been a while since Ive posted an update. Been a bit on the quiet side when it comes to interacting with most people. And I've been trying to get better about that.

I started a new job that takes up a lot of my time. I work at a card shop that sells trading cards, board games, and it hosts events daily too. Its much better than my gamestop job i had. More hours, closer to home, better pay, and fun coworkers. Hopefully I can use some money to attend cons or do other fun things Ive not usually been able to do.

A big life change happened too. Probably the main reason I've been keeping more to myself. Late September, my mom passed away. I was able to see her a few days before she passed, she just wasn't able to respond or communicate. But being able to see her before that meant the world.

Its been almost 5 months now. And you'd think things could get a bit easier or less emotional on the subject. But it hasnt been. It takes a lot to admit that I'm still not okay. Ive been told that it's okay that I'm not okay. But it's hard to accept that.

I feel bad about it all. The last time I spoke to my mom was September 17th when me and my husband were on vacation in disney with a friend. Then 2 days later, she was put in the hospital and wasn't able to talk. We talked almost every day for the years I lived away from my family. But since she passed, I havent been able to consistently keep up with my family. We dont talk unless I call.

Anyway, sorry for rambling. Was just trying to post an update for friends.


If I'm quiet or havent been keeping up with things, please be patient with me. I'm still trying to regain a sense of normality.


Thank you <3