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5 years ago
I've been quiet for awhile and I guess I should explain. This year has really been off to a shity start with nothing going as planned. I lost 600$ on plane tickets for a trip I looked forward to for six months that got cancelled due to unseen circumstances.
Nothing has gone in my favour for looking for new work so as of April I'll most likely be mining for the family again, leaving me with no vacation and little time and energy to be involved with things. With that I've thrown out the idea of getting a fursuit for my 25th birthday because I just don't have the time to use one let alone drop 4 - 6k on one. This fandom was a fun hobby but it gets just as expensive as cars and ATVs - things I get more use out of.
I'm continuing to try and make things work around home to show that I'm responsible while trying to save for the goals and things I want to reach like being able to afford a house of my own but even doing that I'm still getting screwed over and can't live here happily. It seems like no matter what I do or whatever choice I make, it comes back to bite me in the ass. I really feel like I can't win lately.
The sad truth is I'm losing time to really enjoy this fandom and life and responsibilities are constantly pushing me away from it. There is a good chance that I may never see some of you again or get to visit you at all.
The fandom has done great things for me but has also took me to some of the lowest places I've been to yet.
I've spent whole days laying in bed just to fast forward through life, whole nights spent awake because I can't just shut down and turn off from all my stresses. I can't even find the ambition to talk to people on telegram because it feels like a chore. I know that sounds bad but its what it is.
Anyway now you know somewhat of what's going on.
Nothing has gone in my favour for looking for new work so as of April I'll most likely be mining for the family again, leaving me with no vacation and little time and energy to be involved with things. With that I've thrown out the idea of getting a fursuit for my 25th birthday because I just don't have the time to use one let alone drop 4 - 6k on one. This fandom was a fun hobby but it gets just as expensive as cars and ATVs - things I get more use out of.
I'm continuing to try and make things work around home to show that I'm responsible while trying to save for the goals and things I want to reach like being able to afford a house of my own but even doing that I'm still getting screwed over and can't live here happily. It seems like no matter what I do or whatever choice I make, it comes back to bite me in the ass. I really feel like I can't win lately.
The sad truth is I'm losing time to really enjoy this fandom and life and responsibilities are constantly pushing me away from it. There is a good chance that I may never see some of you again or get to visit you at all.
The fandom has done great things for me but has also took me to some of the lowest places I've been to yet.
I've spent whole days laying in bed just to fast forward through life, whole nights spent awake because I can't just shut down and turn off from all my stresses. I can't even find the ambition to talk to people on telegram because it feels like a chore. I know that sounds bad but its what it is.
Anyway now you know somewhat of what's going on.
Maybe see about getting in touch with a counselor? It may take a few times until you find a counselor you can work/ be comfortable with, but it sounds like it could be something for you to look into. Obviously I'm not a professional but a lot of times people preferring to sleep than be awake is due to a bad dose of depression. A counselor / professional in that field could help offer you guidance, and progressive advice and help.
You're awesome!
I totally understand if you need to take time for yourself and away, and I'll support you in what you choose to do if it's healthy for you
Let me know if there's any way I can help, I care about you a lot and you deserve better