Ah, no worries about that, Scamno. It takes always a lot of time and dedication to get better at anything. You also don't just jump on a bike and you know all the traffic rules right away. Even if you feel not satisfied with your skills yet, don't let it spoil your fun in creative content. There are so many things to try and have fun with:
-drawn art
-crafts
-design
-writing (novels, short stories, situations, reports/blogs, poems, etc.)
-sewing & tailoring
-modeling
-photography
-arrangements
-video editing
-role playing
-character creation
and lots and lots more yet.

So don't give up and be assured that even if not every person is vocal (because of time constrints or being shy for example) about it always, there will always be people who appreciate that you share yourself in the art community. Not just that. Through writing your journals and messages to other people you already do a wonderful part in benefitting to what makes this place fun.
I offered it you before already, but never hesitate to message me if you'd like a listener, dude. I still love and appreciate the generous and lovely digital drawing that you had sent me. And I definitely root for that you keep trying to create illustrations and artworks that will bring you personal joy. =D

There is nothing wrong with you and having ambitions is great as long as you don't hit yourself over the head over things too much. Take things in your pace and make the best of each moment. ^_^

This is exactly what I needed to hear. - w- you're so happy-go-lucky and it's... polarizing. you're this, ball of happy and I'm this ball of sad. consider this journal a bit of a vent as well...

I have thought about other mediums.

-drawn art I'm trying to just, DO, and not get bonked in the head with my art block concrete wall!
-crafts I am wanting to do, but we need to move first to be able to do that.
-design sounds interesting, and I may have a knack for that, but we'll see.
-writing I'm surprisingly good at! so I'll continue that.
-sewing & tailoring... I mean if embroidery counts as sewing, then I'm wanting to do that~
-modeling is tempting, but I need a computer upgrade before I even Attempt that.
-photography is tempting as well, and I feel I could have fun with it too.
-arrangements, such as music-making I Want to do. I wanna make my very own soundtrack and character themes~
-video editing I need to get better at if I want my YT channel to have a chance.
-role-playing! Not to brag~ but I'm exceptional at that~
-character creation is a natural art for me, it's Sharing that idea that gets me |3

If I ever start feeling bad again, I may hit you up and chat a bit, your sunshine rays are almost too strong to fight against. ^ w^

Hehe, that's the ticket! Keep taking the fun oppurtunities and share yourself with people you like. I'm glad that you consider me your friend. ^_^

I will~ thank you so much~

You're familiar with that "omaea wa mu, shindaru" memes? I think when you talk to people, it's like "You are, already my friend." It's a given~

Ah, you know that you're totodily welcome always, Scamno. (~^.=.^~)❤️️
And it really is easy to befriend me. Treating each others as equals, sharing the fun and acceptance is what counts for me. Nobody needs to feel like that they have to do anything special to approach me. I have an open mind for anybody who behaves friendly and just likes to converse. =3

You make great drawings~ All the art that you do was and is still really good <3 That is one huge thing that everyone says, everyone says they suck but you really don't. Trust me, seeing all artists, beginners, even people doing it for years, you're still loads better than them, because you try and advance.

Doing art for yourself is better, if you enjoy it, go for it <3 Everything you said in this journal is all a step in the right direction <3

Ahh, c'mooon. ^ w^ My art isn't all that nice looking. hehe. but, I thank you, you're a good friend, and this shows it, but I thank you, I will try my best~

It is nice looking~ You have clean lines, that's something that many people can't get. Just because of that, you have potential to ascend to the skill level of someone like Pippuri or Fidchel. Clean lines cause good accuracy and help characters look more precise, and you have a lot of that <3

Thank you too <3 You're a sweet person to hang out with~