Something happened today that has affected me far more than I expected it to when the time came. I normally hate this but I'm going to be vague for now as a lot of things are up in the air and complicated right now. I might never publicly post about this in detail, actually. I am, for lack of a better phrase, profoundly damaged and lost. I need to get some of my feelings out. I spent today trying to be strong, a distraction for those who needed it as much as I did. I'm not sure how I feel right now or if I am ok. I likely won't be posting at all for a long while. Or I'll be doing the opposite and posting an insane amount of hard to decipher vent art I'm honestly not sure which it will be. I guess mostly I want to say hold people close. And get distance from people who cause you nothing but harm. Don't let their actions decide your worth and never think you didn't do enough. You can never know what another person thinks or feels fully. You can only hope they are honest with you or care enough about you to let you know. It can be very hard. But have those hard conversations. You never know if they will be your last chance. If your read this far, thank you, and know that no matter what you are feeling right now someone is or would be glad to have you around.