So it's probably obvious that I tend to draw in small bursts of a couple of comms, may be some Lexi or my sona here and there and then I go silent for a few months.

The reason is that I'm just not happy with my art RN. Looking back at it i see that I never really moved in a direction i'd be happy with, just forward. Not necessarily a bad thing but it's all been pretty aimless (and slow) improvement over the years. Not liking my own art is something that's been going on for about a year or so, if not more.

Most of these periods of inactivity are spent slacking, putting off the process of sitting down and finally nailing down what my art needs to make me, personally, happy. Now, despite not necessarily being super emotionally attached or invested in commissions (art wise), I still want to deliver something that I consider good work, something I could be happy showing as examples of what I sell when it comes to art. As you can guess this leads to me just not drawing them, couple that with avoiding figuring out why i feel my art is lacking and videogames and you have a recipe for months of no art until suddenly a random burst of motivation breaks the cycle temporarily.

Obviously this is not ideal nor very professional, but it is how things have been for the past... let's just say for a long time. I'm trying to get better though, finally taking a deep look at what is about my art that I don't like and where do I want to take it. Still not entirely sure but i'm starting to take baby steps, so there's that.

TL;DR: I'm bad and lazy and i suck but goddamn i'm trying, i swear.

PS: Comms are on their way, thanks for your immense patience;;