It's good that you vent like this through your art, love. I know you care and because of that you hurt more than most ever understand. Keeping that bottled up just won't do.

It's really hard to talk about any of this. Like, you, and three other people are folks I've wanted to reach out, and like...TALK about all of this, but, my anxiety/depression has a way of talking me out of it.

Common thing it will do, is purposely self sabotage my friendships, including the strongest, and then when they eventually stop talking, my anxiety will be in my ear "See, everyone goes eventually...maybe you should just keep doing this, so no one will stop you"


And I can't even tell you how hard that was to tell you, because you're my best friend. And you have my best interest at heart. And hearing me say that I'm spiraling so bad, probably hurts. I try to be strong, I do.

Love, we may want to continue this in a more private setting- as you didnt just tell me as much as you just told any person who decides to check this journal.

This kind of discussion tends to attract the sort of manipulative groomer trash that live by preying on people in difficult emotional states and only exacerbate these problems, particularly in this fandom. If you'd be available, we could continue on discord, I'd be glad to offer an ear.

*offers the leathery embrace of her arms to her little lioness* I'm sorry I missed this, baby-cat. I talked with The Matron a minute ago. I'm glad she was there for you to vent to.

You have a beautiful heart, you know?

*she smiles, and wraps her arms around you, snuggling close* It's okay love. We seem to have a habit of just missing each other.
And I am too. I'm lucky that her, and her clan are part of my life. <3

*She places a kiss on your chest* As I am glad I was introduced to you.