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A vent journal for Star
5 years ago
So... I just got done reading 
BabyStar's latest page of Shine, which if you have family issues I highly suggest you don't read unless you can take it. The reason I am making this is, not only in the page linked below, I feel like a proper response is necessary rather than simply leaving a comment. Here's the page link and then, I'd like to say why I feel this is needed. https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35846233/
I'm sorry you got beat emotionally like that Gem, I know there's nothing I can do about that and I don't want to try to fix that because I know it's impossible to change the past. But I guess, being an only child who only knew love from one parent, and no connection to the other? I, guess it's hard to see how parent's of any children can be cruel in that regard. My father had high expectations of me for being his only son. That changed swiftly when I was about to go into kindergarten, that summer before I went in he had a serious injury that screwed the rest of his life up so hard that when he went to the doctors, they told him he had a 50/50 chance of walking ever again. And then he just, never cared about anything ever again. I never had a father so to speak, my father was emotionally out of the picture and never supported me, and most sons take after their fathers, but since I had so many fucked up health issues I was basically a sissy of a boy even though I didn't want to be: heart murmur, delayed muscle development in my legs, severe allergies that further inhibited my breathing, and no real father to teach me how to be a man. It hurt not knowing what it was like to have a dad, and seeing how many people I know have father issues, I don't know what's worse: having one be that abusive like in Gem's cases, or not having one care about you at all other than financially like mine. I just... I don't understand how people can be so cold when the person they treat that way, more than likely never did anything truly wrong. I wish I could say something positive like "just grin and bare it, it's all in the past!", but it's NOT. THAT kind of abuse, NEVER goes away and you are afraid to open up - afraid to be YOURSELF, even amongst people you care about immensely. It's hard for anyone who goes through that, and you have my highest respect Star, for sharing this with the world. Thank you.
BabyStar's latest page of Shine, which if you have family issues I highly suggest you don't read unless you can take it. The reason I am making this is, not only in the page linked below, I feel like a proper response is necessary rather than simply leaving a comment. Here's the page link and then, I'd like to say why I feel this is needed. https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35846233/I'm sorry you got beat emotionally like that Gem, I know there's nothing I can do about that and I don't want to try to fix that because I know it's impossible to change the past. But I guess, being an only child who only knew love from one parent, and no connection to the other? I, guess it's hard to see how parent's of any children can be cruel in that regard. My father had high expectations of me for being his only son. That changed swiftly when I was about to go into kindergarten, that summer before I went in he had a serious injury that screwed the rest of his life up so hard that when he went to the doctors, they told him he had a 50/50 chance of walking ever again. And then he just, never cared about anything ever again. I never had a father so to speak, my father was emotionally out of the picture and never supported me, and most sons take after their fathers, but since I had so many fucked up health issues I was basically a sissy of a boy even though I didn't want to be: heart murmur, delayed muscle development in my legs, severe allergies that further inhibited my breathing, and no real father to teach me how to be a man. It hurt not knowing what it was like to have a dad, and seeing how many people I know have father issues, I don't know what's worse: having one be that abusive like in Gem's cases, or not having one care about you at all other than financially like mine. I just... I don't understand how people can be so cold when the person they treat that way, more than likely never did anything truly wrong. I wish I could say something positive like "just grin and bare it, it's all in the past!", but it's NOT. THAT kind of abuse, NEVER goes away and you are afraid to open up - afraid to be YOURSELF, even amongst people you care about immensely. It's hard for anyone who goes through that, and you have my highest respect Star, for sharing this with the world. Thank you.
*hugs* Im sorry my page dredged up bad memories but thank you for reading it and thank you for sharing your personal experiences too because i think it really helps seeing other peoples stories too
HadesFox
~hadesfox
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It's like my friend said to me the other day, it's therapeutic to talk about it even if it's in a nasty way. And again, thank you for sharing this with the world, I mean that.
