Hey, hello everyone.
First of all, I must thank you for all your support. Your messages of support really helped me and I really appreciate the fact that you cared about me more than my work.
I took a bit of time to think about the journal I posted two days ago and I think that I shouldn't close this account, just make it more invisible for people that I think shouldn't gain access to it. The incident that was caused was my fault and I should have thought of a way to prevent it.
I would ask you really not to show hate onto my ex-friend. They're not a bad person and didn't shamed me for my kink. They were just extremly uncomfortable with the fact that my kink was based on something that could make people die, even if it was only fictional. They're a very sensible person and didn't want to continue a relationship where they were scared of me because of who I am. And even if our relationship has ended, none of us hate each other.

Because this was a pretty traumatising event (I went to the ER to prevent a possible suicide), I think I will be a little more distant with this account for a bit. I have no idea how long it will take me to be completly back but I'm pretty sure I that situation gave me PTSD so it might take a while.

Again, thank you all for your support <3