I`m feeling completely devastated after productive February and April. I have no strength to carry on with commissions or anything else. I can`t even work with my master thesis as I wanted because waking up every day just makes me feel even more useless and empty. I am not good enough for anything or anyone. I was trying to but did not succeed and now I am disappointed. I know that noone likes when you complain about things but I cannot hold back much longer it has been too long. But it does not change anything in my life anyway.

I need a brake probably. I had a plan to practice my drawing and do something else but I understand that I can`t even do these simple things. I do not know when I`ll be back, not sure anymore. I just want to curl up in a corner and cry.