It Will Get Worse
5 years ago
General
In eternity, where there is no time, nothing can grow. Nothing can become. Nothing changes. So death created time to grow the things that it would kill and you are reborn but into the same life that you've always been born into.
So the title is referring to what I'm dealing with personally more than the ongoing situation(s). I haven't said much on the situation because it's a slow brewing one and, well, my sincere thoughts and feelings are "insensitive" to say the least. My brother's girlfriend is a few months along in her pregnancy, everything is going "well" and they're planning a baby shower/gender reveal.
All of that is marred by the fact that about a week after they told my family, they had a really bad fight and he needed me to come with him and help him get his shit because he couldn't deal with her. I took the opportunity to remind him that she has lied to him about being pregnant before, she clearly got pregnant on purpose because he tried to break up with her before and he's a stupid cunt, and that he should get a paternity test, because she raises the kind of red flags that knocking herself up with somebody else kid and saying it's his is easily within her capability. Of course he didn't go through with the break up then, but I took the opportunity to tell him "This is the last time I am helping. With any of it. I have told you my concerns, I've told you several times, mom's told you several times, every body has told you things are very wrong. I'm not supporting any of it."
It legit hurts me how excited my parents are about them having a baby. I mean I get the part about having the baby, but where this WILL end up. And I tried to tell them, especially my mom, before this Code Red happened that it would end fucking ugly. Worse than his ex-wife, worse than anything they have seen up close. I've made my thoughts clear that I'm not getting any kind of emotional attachment to this fucking thing because it will be turned into a weapon to hurt all of us. So now I'm having to plan ahead for how to help my parents when all the court cases are done and my brother is left with either supervised visitation only with his kid(s) or no custodial or visitation rights at all and they can't see that grandbaby no more. My mom is still hurting from losing her mom, my grandma, in 2018 and it's filled a need for "good news", but I feel like I'm the only fucking sane cunt here with ANY fucking foresight into how bad this is going to get.
My mom sounds like an abuse victim! She's gone from saying the girlfriend is an awful person FOR my brother (because of how he acts and how they act around each other) to saying "She's not that bad and she's gotten a lot better." Because, no she has not gotten better. She knew we were all in favor of him breaking up with her, so come Christmas she started kissing LOTS of ass. But I'll have to deal with it some how. I plan on being out of her before the fucking thing is born.
All of that is marred by the fact that about a week after they told my family, they had a really bad fight and he needed me to come with him and help him get his shit because he couldn't deal with her. I took the opportunity to remind him that she has lied to him about being pregnant before, she clearly got pregnant on purpose because he tried to break up with her before and he's a stupid cunt, and that he should get a paternity test, because she raises the kind of red flags that knocking herself up with somebody else kid and saying it's his is easily within her capability. Of course he didn't go through with the break up then, but I took the opportunity to tell him "This is the last time I am helping. With any of it. I have told you my concerns, I've told you several times, mom's told you several times, every body has told you things are very wrong. I'm not supporting any of it."
It legit hurts me how excited my parents are about them having a baby. I mean I get the part about having the baby, but where this WILL end up. And I tried to tell them, especially my mom, before this Code Red happened that it would end fucking ugly. Worse than his ex-wife, worse than anything they have seen up close. I've made my thoughts clear that I'm not getting any kind of emotional attachment to this fucking thing because it will be turned into a weapon to hurt all of us. So now I'm having to plan ahead for how to help my parents when all the court cases are done and my brother is left with either supervised visitation only with his kid(s) or no custodial or visitation rights at all and they can't see that grandbaby no more. My mom is still hurting from losing her mom, my grandma, in 2018 and it's filled a need for "good news", but I feel like I'm the only fucking sane cunt here with ANY fucking foresight into how bad this is going to get.
My mom sounds like an abuse victim! She's gone from saying the girlfriend is an awful person FOR my brother (because of how he acts and how they act around each other) to saying "She's not that bad and she's gotten a lot better." Because, no she has not gotten better. She knew we were all in favor of him breaking up with her, so come Christmas she started kissing LOTS of ass. But I'll have to deal with it some how. I plan on being out of her before the fucking thing is born.
DireWolf505
~direwolf505
Gah.
ConnorH
~connorh
I'm so sorry to hear that. *snugs
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