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Return of the STALKER. (Updated)
5 years ago
I warned you, asshole. Many times.
This is the updated journal I said I would post if you kept harassing me.
Hey guys.
I have a stalker.
A persistent one. And he has been psychotically obsessed with me and my art for a couple years now. He also appears to be romantically interested in me, the very notion of which fills me with loathing and revulsion, the likes of which I usually reserve for child molesters and Donald Trump.
It all started when he started roleplaying as one of my characters, Greta Groß, one of my old timey toon characters. WITHOUT my permission. I asked him to stop. I reported him to the FA staff. But no. He kept harassing me, and he kept harassing my friends, begging them for free art, offering them “cookies” in exchange. (the cookie was a .JPG of a cookie.)
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/ch.....unkgretagross/
I asked him to stop. Then I called him out when he didn’t.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7770980/
This was his main account. Note all the hideous recolorings of my own art. Also done without permission.
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/pandapops1998/
EVENTUALLY my fans’ justified disgust convinced him to stop posting on that account….
So he made another account and kept doing it.
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/chunkyskunkgreta/
Then he started making NEW accounts with my characters and making truly repulsive, loathsome pieces of “fan art” of my characters. He even made a “tribute” account to my fat rabbit boy.
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/bigbunartie/
He’s since “hidden” them, due to my fans’ backlash. But needless to say, he made my characters disgusting, and nobody liked what he drew. Here’s a choice piece.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26178244/
In a sick effort to “get in my good graces,” he even sent me a couple of things on my amazon wishlist. I am SO glad that Amazon has to option to hide your home address on your wishlist. He sent me a package of “tetris” lamps. I am disgusted by the fact that they were a gift from him, so I’ve since sold them.
He even BEGGED me to let him “do work for me” on some of my projects. Even though just one look at his art tells you that you would never want this person’s assistance.
Because of this disgusting person’s behavior, I have no intention of drawing my old toony “inkblot” style, EVER again. Not if it attracts loathsome imbeciles like this.
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Then he started sending me “romantic” messages.
https://i.gyazo.com/917b48012ef17e3.....7626044ae8.png
https://i.gyazo.com/ded792e43f03ac7.....88f13040cd.png
Oh and here’s the little bit of icing on this shitcake, sent to me on Patreon.
https://i.gyazo.com/f7014cab4d43056.....ec1c78e56c.png
After that, when I told him in no uncertain terms to go fuck himself, and blocked him on each new account he made, he started to get mad.
https://i.gyazo.com/52050eeef2a77c1.....99c41fa8d4.png
https://i.gyazo.com/97764936decca1b.....e900f3a2d9.png
https://i.gyazo.com/ab76467f874c451.....45a1b20a45.png
FurAffinity FINALLY gave him a permanent IP ban.
Then he began harassing me and my friends as “coolriannajones.”
I banned him in my Picarto stream when he was MegaPeacockMan. I banned him as Riannajones. And he is no doubt making a new account to harass me and my circle as we speak.
I was suspicious of him as he hung out in my streams, because I could not confirm it at the time. But no. He denied that he was this stalker. He lied constantly. He lied about it, and he even pretended to be trans to try and back up his claim.
Let me repeat that:
HE PRETENDED TO BE TRANSGENDER SO HE COULD STALK ME.
Tumblr deleted the conversation when I blocked him, but here is his last message to me on Tumblr, pasted into notepad:
https://i.gyazo.com/175a66c6eccc422.....0cc3e64719.png
Here is his most recent message to me, sent via email.
https://i.gyazo.com/03880e552e606ff.....00a64cffc6.png
Here is his most recent piece of “fan art” he made. Take note of his “special” artistic technique, and how he’s drawn one of my best friends, WITHOUT EVEN INFORMING HER.
https://i.gyazo.com/96129bf2489c62f.....11f16edfeb.png
Not only does he harass me, but he puts NO value on anyone else outside of how they are related to me. That is insulting to me, it’s insulting to Daniruu, it’s insulting to my friends. He is a truly disgusting person.
https://coolriannajones.tumblr.com/ <— This was his most recent attempt to come after me on Tumblr.
...
And once again he returns, this time posing as "Ragtime Rochelle." https://www.furaffinity.net/user/ragtimerochelle/
Same art style, same inkblot toon obsession, same interest in my work, and this time he's REALLY playing up the "it's not really me" angle.
Check out this photo sent by "his girlfriend."
https://imgur.com/FtMkS7r (Same HANDWRITING too.)
https://i.gyazo.com/651a13408d95eb6.....9c44e32cc9.png < Proof that he was lying about his identity.
You may ALSO notice that he has his discord right on his front page. This is BAIT, a feeble attempt to get me to click it so he would be able to see my Discord ID.
...
Yeah. Now I know for certain that abandoning my old inkblot toon style was the right choice. I was right to do it, because it attracted this twisted maniac to me. I wish I had never even gotten the idea to make old timey toon characters. If I'd known then what I know now, I would never have even submitted art on FurAffinity at all. This is the reason I almost never post on FA anymore. And why I have been drifting away from furry art in general.
My inkblots. Are dead. Gone. I will never draw them again, under any circumstances whatsoever. And I am not likely to take any more furry commissions here either.
I will not be attending any furry conventions in the future, even when the Coronavirus is gone. It's not safe for me.
...
This is the psychopath that has been stalking me for years now. This is the person who makes me feel concerned for my safety at cons, this is the person who ruined the old timey toon style for me. This is my stalker.
If you see Riannajones, MegaPeacockMan, Pandapops, (or any variant of those names) in your stream, block and report them. If any of you are accosted by this piece of human garbage asking for art of my characters, block and report them.
Oh and if you’re reading this (and I know you are), go turn yourself in to the nearest mental hospital. You are quite simply, the lowest, most vile human being I’ve ever had the misfortune of personally talking to, and I hope, against all hope, that I never see or hear from you again.
Please spread this around as much as you can. The more people who are warned of this degenerate psychopath’s behavior, the better.
EDIT: The links should work properly now.
This is the updated journal I said I would post if you kept harassing me.
Hey guys.
I have a stalker.
A persistent one. And he has been psychotically obsessed with me and my art for a couple years now. He also appears to be romantically interested in me, the very notion of which fills me with loathing and revulsion, the likes of which I usually reserve for child molesters and Donald Trump.
It all started when he started roleplaying as one of my characters, Greta Groß, one of my old timey toon characters. WITHOUT my permission. I asked him to stop. I reported him to the FA staff. But no. He kept harassing me, and he kept harassing my friends, begging them for free art, offering them “cookies” in exchange. (the cookie was a .JPG of a cookie.)
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/ch.....unkgretagross/
I asked him to stop. Then I called him out when he didn’t.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7770980/
This was his main account. Note all the hideous recolorings of my own art. Also done without permission.
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/pandapops1998/
EVENTUALLY my fans’ justified disgust convinced him to stop posting on that account….
So he made another account and kept doing it.
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/chunkyskunkgreta/
Then he started making NEW accounts with my characters and making truly repulsive, loathsome pieces of “fan art” of my characters. He even made a “tribute” account to my fat rabbit boy.
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/bigbunartie/
He’s since “hidden” them, due to my fans’ backlash. But needless to say, he made my characters disgusting, and nobody liked what he drew. Here’s a choice piece.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26178244/
In a sick effort to “get in my good graces,” he even sent me a couple of things on my amazon wishlist. I am SO glad that Amazon has to option to hide your home address on your wishlist. He sent me a package of “tetris” lamps. I am disgusted by the fact that they were a gift from him, so I’ve since sold them.
He even BEGGED me to let him “do work for me” on some of my projects. Even though just one look at his art tells you that you would never want this person’s assistance.
Because of this disgusting person’s behavior, I have no intention of drawing my old toony “inkblot” style, EVER again. Not if it attracts loathsome imbeciles like this.
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…
…
Then he started sending me “romantic” messages.
https://i.gyazo.com/917b48012ef17e3.....7626044ae8.png
https://i.gyazo.com/ded792e43f03ac7.....88f13040cd.png
Oh and here’s the little bit of icing on this shitcake, sent to me on Patreon.
https://i.gyazo.com/f7014cab4d43056.....ec1c78e56c.png
After that, when I told him in no uncertain terms to go fuck himself, and blocked him on each new account he made, he started to get mad.
https://i.gyazo.com/52050eeef2a77c1.....99c41fa8d4.png
https://i.gyazo.com/97764936decca1b.....e900f3a2d9.png
https://i.gyazo.com/ab76467f874c451.....45a1b20a45.png
FurAffinity FINALLY gave him a permanent IP ban.
Then he began harassing me and my friends as “coolriannajones.”
I banned him in my Picarto stream when he was MegaPeacockMan. I banned him as Riannajones. And he is no doubt making a new account to harass me and my circle as we speak.
I was suspicious of him as he hung out in my streams, because I could not confirm it at the time. But no. He denied that he was this stalker. He lied constantly. He lied about it, and he even pretended to be trans to try and back up his claim.
Let me repeat that:
HE PRETENDED TO BE TRANSGENDER SO HE COULD STALK ME.
Tumblr deleted the conversation when I blocked him, but here is his last message to me on Tumblr, pasted into notepad:
https://i.gyazo.com/175a66c6eccc422.....0cc3e64719.png
Here is his most recent message to me, sent via email.
https://i.gyazo.com/03880e552e606ff.....00a64cffc6.png
Here is his most recent piece of “fan art” he made. Take note of his “special” artistic technique, and how he’s drawn one of my best friends, WITHOUT EVEN INFORMING HER.
https://i.gyazo.com/96129bf2489c62f.....11f16edfeb.png
Not only does he harass me, but he puts NO value on anyone else outside of how they are related to me. That is insulting to me, it’s insulting to Daniruu, it’s insulting to my friends. He is a truly disgusting person.
https://coolriannajones.tumblr.com/ <— This was his most recent attempt to come after me on Tumblr.
...
And once again he returns, this time posing as "Ragtime Rochelle." https://www.furaffinity.net/user/ragtimerochelle/
Same art style, same inkblot toon obsession, same interest in my work, and this time he's REALLY playing up the "it's not really me" angle.
Check out this photo sent by "his girlfriend."
https://imgur.com/FtMkS7r (Same HANDWRITING too.)
https://i.gyazo.com/651a13408d95eb6.....9c44e32cc9.png < Proof that he was lying about his identity.
You may ALSO notice that he has his discord right on his front page. This is BAIT, a feeble attempt to get me to click it so he would be able to see my Discord ID.
...
Yeah. Now I know for certain that abandoning my old inkblot toon style was the right choice. I was right to do it, because it attracted this twisted maniac to me. I wish I had never even gotten the idea to make old timey toon characters. If I'd known then what I know now, I would never have even submitted art on FurAffinity at all. This is the reason I almost never post on FA anymore. And why I have been drifting away from furry art in general.
My inkblots. Are dead. Gone. I will never draw them again, under any circumstances whatsoever. And I am not likely to take any more furry commissions here either.
I will not be attending any furry conventions in the future, even when the Coronavirus is gone. It's not safe for me.
...
This is the psychopath that has been stalking me for years now. This is the person who makes me feel concerned for my safety at cons, this is the person who ruined the old timey toon style for me. This is my stalker.
If you see Riannajones, MegaPeacockMan, Pandapops, (or any variant of those names) in your stream, block and report them. If any of you are accosted by this piece of human garbage asking for art of my characters, block and report them.
Oh and if you’re reading this (and I know you are), go turn yourself in to the nearest mental hospital. You are quite simply, the lowest, most vile human being I’ve ever had the misfortune of personally talking to, and I hope, against all hope, that I never see or hear from you again.
Please spread this around as much as you can. The more people who are warned of this degenerate psychopath’s behavior, the better.
EDIT: The links should work properly now.
The fact that this fool even made you uncomfortable to go to cons really pisses me off. Would you be able to call authorities if this guy makes you that unsafe or find out a way to block him out? I really worry and you're a great person, stay safe Beau.
Jesus...that sentence creeped me out from the delusion of it...
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> I will not be attending any furry conventions in the future, even when the Coronavirus is gone. It's not safe for me.
oh gosh this part is really the saddest thing to read regarding this :( I really hope he stops finally and you can recover from this all...
Idiots like those are the very definition of "this is why we can't have nice things", and it sickens me that people can be so obsessive, so calloused to an artist's feelings and those of others, and so toxic to the community, simply because they latch onto something they like about the artist's work like a leech. That's the best definition for them; they're leeches, sucking the goodness and good faith of the artist out of them, and driving them into seclusion, as a result.
I hope you can get through this, and I hope the jackhole gets what's coming to him. I wish you all the best luck in the world over this.
It's immensely heartbreaking to see your passion eroded by someone so truly deranged. I hope that you may one day be free and safe to pursue your interests as you please without pursuit by a genuine lunatic.
IF YOU'RE READING THIS COMMENT! HE DOESN'T WANT YOU. He's talked to me on MULTIPLE OCCASIONS ABOUT YOU, and your weirdness. Please. STOP.
Get over it, move on, find someone else, you only want beau for selfish reasons, not cause you "Love" him. Cause you're obsessed with him, and its unhealthy.
Please get help.
To Beau: Im sorry you're having to deal with this scum again dude
Hope you're doing well too.
I think you pretty much summed it up pretty well when you told him to "take the fucking hint".
I'm also really sorry it's ruined your outlook on your art and doing things you enjoy. I hope things go better for you. =(
Amazon still states "Your delivery address may be visible to someone who purchases an item for you from your List."
This has been an ongoing issue for models, youtube stars, twitch personalities, extra.
So I know how you feel.
im not super sure how online stalking criminality works,but as far as im aware if the person keeps doing it, and u repeatedly told them to stop, u should be able to file for a report and have the person arrested or at least detained
Once an IP exists it just exists. "killing them" is literally just a drawing same as anything else. Though for some people this might ruin an IP for them indefinitely because of some "forced closure", to your average human being this just doesn't' mean shit. I mean some characters are OFFICIALLY x gender or sex or orientation and people change it to fit their own agenda for "fanfiction" all the time. Making more art to try and compensate, "death" or not won't change some people's minds.
Sorry that he's still on your case.
Do what you need to do, but don't let your passion be eroded.
Draw yourself the stuff you enjoy, and just don't share it publically, if needed. That way you can do what fulfils you and it's a 'fuck you' to the guy harassing you.
I don't know you personally, but my details are public on my page if you ever want to talk to someone, or vent or anything. Always happy to chat about anything to anyone.
It's pathetic. I'm sorry for this shit. Stay safe, talk to some folk who make you feel safe. You already know this but. Hell.
I'm sorry.
sorry this has been happening to you.
well hell. I love your 'inkblot' style'. Put is aside , and come back to it when and if you ever feel it's right.
Look after yourself!
I really don't care. In fact, I wish him well
'Cause I'll be laughing my head off when he's burning in Hell.
I feel so unfathomably sorry for you, and I hope he either gets the memo soon, or he gets checked into some place that can help his twisted obsession.
¿Tú hablas español?
I have a restraining order against mine, but because of covid they just catch and release him. =/
I hope you find some peace from that freak some day.
Sadly, making this a spectacle seems to be the only thing that actually affects this freak.
And at this point, getting banned from FA would almost be a MERCY. =_=;
Because the last thing I want is to lose respect with people I praise for their good, hard work.
I know I can be enthusiastic when I order commissions to you, but unlike that loser, I know when to stop when things get bad.
This has gone too far now.
Is worth saying it's not the "inkblots" fault, though now they will be irriversably tied to this in your mind and that's absolutely okay to not associate with.
if he is, then this is the highest level tier trolling ive ever seen.
This guy’s been doing this for years with no signs of ever stopping. They’re a stalker, whom needs to be institutionalized.
Someone like this needs HELP. That makes NONE of the actions acceptable or okay, but they are genuinely fucked up and they need some psychological help. Badly.
I hope this fucktard finally backs off with so much against him now, and I do adore your work, but if it makes you feel unsafe to do a particular style, I am sure no one is going to condone you for it. Please be safe and you got tons of people on your side, it seems! ♥
EDIT: Also carry pepper spray or a taser just in case when you're at the conventions. Extra security!
I've interacted with this person before, and on more than one of their accounts - Peacock and Rochelle, they even commissioned me. Mind that I wasn't aware of any of this more severe stuff, or even any connection between the two. I'd like to think I'm pretty good at keeping certain kinds of people at arms' length, so I haven't really gotten the worst of it, but I can corroborate the sexual jokes being taken too far while they were peacock during my own streams, and the constant pushing for inkblot art.
It's a shame you're giving up on a lot of things - you were one of the first people to welcome me into the fandom and share some drawing tips. If you ever need to chat or commiserate, I'll still be around, doing my thing.
Eventually, without the responses to feed off of they burn out. That's what keeps them going. As they keep pushing and you keep turning it in, they'll eventually be pushed out of all avenues.
If you did go to a convention and he did show.. well 1, I would feel sorry for him knowing how the Furry community bans together behind each other and 2, you could actually get him arrested, get his full information and that way, if he did keep harassing you, he would end up being put behind bars because you could press true charges against him.
Know this though, regardless of what you do, NOT drawing your inkblots does not mean he won;t continue to follow and harass you. He could very well just be obsessed with you and your art regardless of your style. He could also be someone who is just trying to break you. People that vindictive do exist. I've dealt with them... they can be exhausting fights to get away from them. You might want to be ready to keep fighting.. keep this in mind though.. you have a very loyal fan base who will fly to your defense. IT might not be what you WANT to do... but it might be what you HAVE to do to get him to back off in the long run... in the end.. better to fight with willing Allies then struggle on alone.
I wish you the best.. if there is anything I can do to help, shoot me a message. I'll do my best. Take care, good luck and stay safe.
Thank you for the kind words though.
Still, I can just wish you the best of luck, and my notes are always open if you want someone to talk to that's been through similar. Take care, and unless this guy has really ruined your Inkblots, don't fully give up on them, you never know.. one day you might be able to bring them back. That's all up to you.. no him, or anyone else.
Thanks though. But the inkblots are gone. I can barely even stand to look at the style anymore. I hate it now.
i know of furs who stop drawing muscle or macro Characters because of freaks who harassed and stalked them for RP or Roleplayed as their Characters
Regardless, that's really tough and freaky... I'd understand why you'd be scared. I hope this guy eventually gets the kind of treatment he needs and that you'll be able to move on from all this. Best regards.
You can leave because of them, but I'm guessing now they'll try to reach you to apologize, and see if they can convince you to come back. Ultimately you should do what you feel is best, but I would suggest you just continue to block them whenever they attempt to contact you via whatever means they're currently using, and carry on with your life as usual. Show them they don't mean a thing to you.
You've made your intention quite clear, Beau, and yet this individual still won't stop harassing you. Enough is enough, and sometimes punishments as severe as that is called for to ensure someone gets the hint.
I've known you for many years, (well, we've talked a fair bit and I watch the stream from time to time but still) you've always been approachable for most things and to think this individual made you shut up shop here is heartbreaking.
I do hope he learns to leave you be. I always liked the inkblot Beau. Make sure to take the appropriate precautions as it is clear this individual doesn't think... Exactly normally.
I've had a few stalkerish people to date but certainly not to this extent...
Hopefully things ease off a bit and you can do what you love, matey. Admins should be ashamed of their lack of action against such stalkerish behaviour.
Stop feeding the troll. It's clear you've replied to him several times, and that is far, far too many. You need to completely, ENTIRELY ignore him. PERMANENTLY. No responding, no interacting, and most importantly, no making entire journal pages dedicated to giving him attention. Honestly, this is the worst thing you could do for yourself, because this is a huge lump of food for the troll to be fed with.
He will not hurt you. Nuke him from your life permanently. Make his entire effort of creating an alt account to reach you result in a silent block with zero reward. This is the only way to genuinely get rid of him. Lastly, as others have said, find a way to get the police or private investigators involved. But for the love of god, don't publicly post food for the troll. This won't help you. None of us can help you other than telling you things like this.
P.S It's just human psychology. If there is a reaction, that is seen as a reward for the one who is bothering you. Even if you are telling them to fuck off, insulting them, anything, if there is a reaction, that is dopamine and whatever in their brains that tells them "this action had a result!". Therefore, to break the cycle, you must nuke it by ignoring him entirely & only communicating privately to get him banned or his stolen art removed.
I just need a nap right now.
However to also say that can get the stalker to move on to someone else. A stalker and a troll may have a lot in common, but a stalker will also do things irl if given the chance, like buying lapinbeau those lamps for example. If he had the address visible this could be a whole other conversation entirely.
I also saw someone in these comments talk about witness protection and while I don’t think it would need to go that far, I would recommend getting a vpn and doing a total rebrand and abandon what is associated with this name and profile for a while if possible
We all know what to look for now, this guy can't keep hiding, he will be found out and shunned for what he has done to you. Your art is iconic and in my opinion a cornerstone of furry art that's shaped a lot of people for the better and inspired a whole fleet of artists. This can only get better, you have nowhere to go but up. Furry didn't lose you, you're just evolving to the next bigger and brighter step.
Sadly you can't really stop people being assholes, I'm just upset and disgusted that it was pushed this far.
All the best for the future man, hopefully we get to see the evolution of your style here or on some other sites.
The.
Cops.
I'll miss seeing your art if you do go, but thanks for sharing it with us for so long. I've really enjoyed some of your posts.
I hope this person recognises their obvious mental illness before they cause any more harm to others.
What they've put you through is truly awful.
And I hope things will only improve from here on out for ya. Even if I don't know you, I wish you well. C:
Ya know how I did it? I responded to his messages with non-sequiturs. Apropos-of-nothing MST3K quotes actually got him to leave me the hell alone.
But yeah... sucks that this guy killed your love of the furry fandom. Seriously, fuck that guy.
You have/had a cool style. Didn't know about this maniac until know, and I'm not gonna go looking through their stuff. Your art will continue to bring me and others joy, untainted by one madman's rampage, no one can take that away. You brought us joy, your years on FA were a good thing. I hope there's at least some comfort in that. Be safe.
also: hard agree on all those telling you to go to the cops!
I hate to say it, but, fucks like that latch on to anything more or less, not just specific styles or characters or interests, they are relatively very rare, but the level of persistance and toxicity they pursue the person they obsess over is just extremely damaging. And as I said, whatever folk like this obsess insanely over can be so wide and varied on possibilities that, the only consistent thing one can do to minimize chances of falling into someone like this' radar, is to not be too public and visible, but hell, that just reduces chances of something extremely rare to happen from happening, but even the rarest phenomenon has to happen to someone, in the end.
I'm not saying this to try to keep you from leaving, or doing art of said characters or whatever the hell. The hurt you feel and trauma around all this that was linked thank to this fucking asshole's actions is very real and understandable. But that wherever you go after, try not to blame anything you did or liked or place you went as being WHY this happened. This happened cause a person of that type just happened to be here, and everything wrong is purely and absolutely his fucking fault and responsibility.
Again, so sorry you had gone through this for years, just, uugghhh, can't not feel bad for you and be so upset in general.
This person has simply convinced me that this fandom is just... not worth the risk.
I also hope things will get better for you in the future. Stay safe.
I had been wondering why I hadn't seen much in a while, but that takes the cake. Sorry to hear this shit storm has been floating round you. Its super sad you have to deal with this, especially as this seems to be a very disturbed individual who cant take a hint. Just remember All of us who have been here got your back. Focus on your health above all else. Just hope it means you can find enjoyment in what you love still.
Your toon style chars were my introduction to your art, and while I do miss seeing them pop up in my inbox, I can understand why you've stopped drawing them.
I hope you don't distance yourself from the fandom too far, and that this stalker takes the hint in how his actions have now deprived himself of seeing what he enjoyed, but making you not enjoy drawing it, and your fans not able to see it either.
If you feel it is right your THIS persistent then bare in mind the person you care about or just the provider of the art you like, is scared, frightened and upset.
Take a moment and think closely about those emotions you elicit in them. I don’t say that with a “shame on you” ((although you have taken it to far and you should not be confused with that)).
Mentioned above, you tried to defend you had asbergers. I could, on my worst, worst, WORST day imagine when you feel so absolutely unconnected with the world. To be so utterly emotionally isolated.
You just don’t care how you have others perceive you because you have been always perceived as weird and unwanted. And I’m desperation, I can imagine how you don’t try to rationalise it, you just want to get the outcome you imagine.
What I encourage you to do is imagine if it all did work out. Imagine you had everything you hoped for from this whole fiasco.
And then you didn’t want it anymore. Honestly try and imagine that this is not really what you wanted from the start. For example, if you felt acting in a more transsexual identity was going to win you more points, how long would you realistically care to be like that?
Think about how much you would of left a mark on the artist, forcing yourself there. And then it was no longer what you wanted. Please try to imagine the guilt you would feel let alone, imagine how much of pain you’d inflict on the artist if they finally opened up to you, only for you to leave because this was, and is an obsession. Nothing real.
THIS IS NOT A DEFEND. But I really want you to listen to me about this.
I had an unrequited love and obsession. Sometimes the emotion comes back but I try to do everything to forget it ( and frankly sometimes still has a hold on me) for the past 10 years. I don’t want it though but when she came by and asked for money, after £2.6k spent to support her “illness” the moment she was gone I just took away the one fact I started it to show myself.
I could earn £2.6k extra for myself.
There is drive and energy you could dedicate yourself to something positive and that something, whatever it may be will be more fulfilling.
I truly believe you know you shouldn’t stalk this artist anymore, I know you feel like you have “nothing else” to focus on and even with banning and reporting, the sheer Indescriminant Loneliness and isolation you feel, makes even this more engaging than nothing...
Just really try, as an excercise, try and honestly put yourself in the artists shoes here. You might honestly not get it, you may say “I’d love if someone was so willing to put themselves out of their way for me!” But even in your life you will have had unwanted attention.
Picture a homeless person out on the street. You will have passed them by and not thought to treat them the same way you do to this artist. In fact think that you, yourself might well have turned out eye and avoided eye-contact for a number of reasons.
It’s a sorry example but we are all known to do it, so please use that, if it’s something you can see yourself doing to really put into picture how you make this artist feel.
I won’t be telling you to fuck off, I don’t think that’s what you need to hear but at the end of this, please. You must stop this. This will not Male you happier. This will not increase your chances with the artist.
This will not help anything in any meaningfully way.
To the artist: I think you’ve already patiently and cautiously dealt with this guy and you wouldn’t be telling him to fuck off and ban him without just cause which I truly believe he needs to have done . If he bugs you again, instead maybe direct him to m.
The whole “I have asbergers” could of easily been a lie. I just really hope this message actually strikes home for him and it might show him why these actions are wrong. I do think he needs to really reflect on the kind of distress he is causing.
I cannot say how sorry I am to hear you get this sort of garbage.
I liked your art too (especially Jessie).
Not going to unfollow you or anything, since I like all your stuff, not just Inkblots. Dunno if you're on DeviantArt, but I haven't been able to get on there since they messed it up with that Eclipse crap, just never loads properly for me any more.
Anyways, wishing you all the best, whatever you decide.
Feel free to message me if there's any way I can help out. Not sure how I can, but the offer is there if there is some way I can.
You have to queen mauve him for him to move on; you ignore, block, and report, but you do not communicate with and you do not draw attention to.
Anyways good luck and I hope you find a place where you feel safe.
If there was ever a line not to cross, holy fuck did they cross it. Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself, however one of my biggest fears when it comes to designing characters that represent myself or express part of who I am are people who attempt to cross that line to force themselves into my life in one way or another.
I like when people like my characters, crush on them, fantasize about them since it's what I like to do with them, but in the end the representation of my character is my own decision to make. Nobody will do a better job of being your character than you. Many will try but it'll just be some vain attempt. It's an identity, something you've created and something you're proud of.
I sincerely hope that this doesn't spiral on for too much longer. You deserve true creative freedom and peace of mind. Nobody can take that away from you. Stay strong!
Do what you need to do to be safe and know that you may have a legal option to deter him once and for all.
Sorry you've been dealing with this piece of smegma. Might I recommend that they get Slamfucked?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9oc.....ture=emb_title
Even if right-now it doesnt feel like an immediate danger, please consider police involvement if things persist and have logs w/ dates saved if such reporting is needed (e.g., PDF print outs of messages that show timestamps and such information).
Avoid engaging this person as much as possible, save evidence of messages and block + report to site administration when they circumvent the block to escalate action on their account. There is no point in replying to them, and they are likely using -any- interaction (even angry\negative) you give them as a wedge to get back in your life.
Unfortunately stalkers are persistent people with no social skils and some obsessive compulsive complex, often they want to be noticed by their senpai, often they want to fulfill their obsession, to win their prize, the solution is to ignore their advance and Denounce them, report them everywere
Unlike trolls they won't stop even if you ignore them.
Thank you for your time
To the creepo out there somewhere, just get a life would ya? And get some help, seriously.
If you read the whole journal (and the previous journals before this) and see all of the screenshots, you would realize how outright disturbing this one psycho really is. And this has been going on for years. And he refused to know when to read the room and quit.
No one should ever have to be obsessed with the artist over a single character in that level. Lapinbeau had made this clear several times, but this guy would never listen to reason.
I hate that Beau had to give up all this, but you need to blame the stalker, not the victim.
This is extremely unhealthy for both either way. Please understand that.
I hope this is fixed soon. And that this "person" has what he deserves.
Success in your life, Beau. And thank you very much for the art you have given us in this time.
Anyway, artistic styles and tastes change as the artist does over time anyway, your work is still rad and funny, and I'm curious to see how it changes and wanna continue to support you as an artist (even though I'm mooooostly a lurker >.>)
I hope you got the support of your friends to help you through this shit, and I wish you the best of luck!
Also any way to get law enforcement involved? This creep seems like the kind that would probably try to pull some "If I can't have you no one will" crap. Would probably be best for everyone involved if he was taken right off the street.
I sincerely hope this person gets professional help, not because I pity them but because you and your friends don't deserve any of this.
Sending you well wishes through this, take care of yourself and do what you need to. Your priorities are in the right place and no con or inkblot character is worth your sense of security.
Seriously, it is. SO MUCH that you're ceasing a type of art you used to do over it.... That's when you know someone's gone too far, it's horrible you had to be pushed to something like that but for your sake, safety, and well being, it's for the better.... It's just ungodly disturbing that DESPITE ALL OF THAT the person persists. I really hope for a good outcome for you, there isn't much I can do (Definitely with how shitty 2020's being right now.) But you have my support! Please stay safe as safest can be.
The best you can do, as many people already wrote you in this journal, is to ignore him and not replying to any of his messages, these guys just get desperate at first, then they get tired and bored eventualy, and they just leave you be.
Please stay safe. Stalkers are no fucking joke. D:
I hope the situation can finally be resolved.
You have a demon(s) assigned to you.
Basically, as I understand it - the more we sin in this reality/life we are living, the more permission a demon, or multiple demons are given to troll us. The worse of a sinner you are, the more nasty the 'trolling' tends to get. Murderers get messed with in fatal ways if they do not change their ways.
For those of us furries who are mostly just corrupted by sexual deviancy and sin - the demons take up some pretty creative and /odd/ ways of messing with us.
When I used to be really into doing adult stuff online, over time I began to have someone who started using my character art for their profiles and characters. At the time I thought I was just dealing with a pretty messed up individual who wouldn't stop messing with me for some reason. I'm writing to you because I noticed similarities in what you wrote about how this person is messing with your characters, impersonating them, or otherwise using them or aspects of them to screw with you.
This is what demons do. They masquerade as people online (among other things) and do things to try and make our lives upsetting, make us feel harassed, etc. They have permission to do this because of the sins we are indulging in at the time. They (these demonic entities) can take it pretty far - even so much as (unless I am mistaken) show up in the 'real world' as a person, hence - they can carry on this 'con' on you by showing up as a person at a furry convention, for example. Don't ask me how they do it - God only knows, but these entities (Demons, fallen angels) have some pretty wild powers and are the ultimate trolls - they are AMAZINGLY GOOD at playing mind games on people who have been marked as sinners that are their targets.
I'm not trying to be holier than thou - I mean.. I did some pretty embarrassing stuff back in my day, online. Lots of adult roleplay, and that's just a small partition of the sins I was caught up in.
Honestly, the only way to escape this sort of torment is to accept Jesus Christ as your savior for your sins, repent and be born again of the spirit, and not just of the flesh. It is entirely your choice - but if you start reading the bible, going to church, and avoiding material and behavior considered sinful - you will find that your life, and reality itself will start to magically change. Your stalker will just ... seemingly lose interest in you, more or less.
I don't know /how/ it works but I believe a lot of it has to do with vibration. When we sin, for example - the sin of lust, and create or look at lots of naughty art, or do adult erotic roleplay, for example - you begin to have a sort of vibration that demons can sense or smell, I guess? You give off this ... I don't know what it is - but demons can easily /find/ you and mess with you. Online or in the real world - it doesn't matter. Only becoming a chaste (to the best of your ability) repenting follower of Jesus will protect you. When you become chaste, try to keep yourself pure, don't create corrupting adult art or look at it to the best you can, and so on - your vibration or 'smell' changes, and becomes repulsive to these beings.
Now I will say this - if you do decide to become a Christian and enter into a relationship with God and His Son - understand one thing...you will become HEAVILY targeted by these beings. MUCH moreso then you tend to be as a pagan/sinner. Why is this? Because these entities realize there is another potential soul that might be wisening up to what they are doing, and the reality they are living in - you are someone whose soul they may potentially lose - and this drives them up the wall. They wish to control and maintain control/manipulation over all of us - so those individuals who begin to repent and to purify themselves and their lives and lean on God and His Son will find themselves suddenly the target of much, much more spiritual attacks. It may come from family, or a close friend, or even strangers when you go out. These beings have the ability to manipulate people, somehow - and they will pull out all the tricks they know to try and get you to just give up on being a good Christian and go back to your old ways of just living for yourself, not worrying about good and evil in a biblical sense.
Please forgive me for preaching to you out of the blue - but I felt compelled because I had had very similar experiences happen to me online in regards to what you are writing about here. When I repented and devoted my life from that point on to God and His Son first and foremost in all my actions instead of my own wants and desires - things got /really wacky/ - but in a good way. God gives gifts and rewards to His children who make a very hard effort to become good children - and these rewards far, far outweight the rewards you get (money, fame and status) from indulging in sin, such as making adult are, or doing adult roleplay, and so forth.
I never used to take any religion seriously, especially Jesus Christ. But if you think about it - how seemingly the majority of the world seem to have an instantaneous revulsion or rejection to considering Jesus Christ whenever it is brought up - this is no coincidence! The world, the reality, our lives we are living in is full of selfish behavior - and the entities (the rebelling angels, demons) who exist 'behind the veil' and watch and manipulate us want us to keep behaving selfishly and in naughty ways.
Your mind really will be blown if you take up the holy lance of God and struggle to be a warrior/servant for Him and His Son. You will begin to see the demons online who had so much influence in your life and how for so much of your life you had been manipulated. You will begin to donate to charities more, and find yourself helping out friends, family, or even random strangers in the supermarket if you can. You will be like Sarah from the movie Labyrinth who realizes near the end of the movie that the Goblin King finally has no more power over her.
God bless and I hope you are doing well in life.
Bring your religious stuff Somewhere else
Also, thank you for visiting my FA page and leaving profanities. It means I must be doing something right!
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Matthew 5:10