soooo yea, Monday, I was on my way to work, it was storming real bad, I hit a bit of flooded road and ended up hydroplaning. I was on the highway, in the far left lane, when I lost control I drove into the grass, there was like a cable fence type thing that's supposed to stop you from going into oncoming but it did not stop me, at all, I went straight into oncoming, on the highway, I was very close to hitting someone head on going like 70 -80 mph, if I did I probably wouldn't be alive right now, but thankfully I had the presence of mind to take as much control of the situation I could. I still couldn't really control the car but I was able to manipulate it enough that I avoided hitting anyone and crashed back into the cable fence, and this time it stopped me. though "stopping me" is a bit of an understatement, I rammed into several of the poles and the cable completely wrapped around my car as I spun, I actually had to crawl out of one of my windows to get out because the cables were taught around my vehicle, preventing the doors from opening.

I walked away relatively injury free, no broken or fractured bones, just got whiplash and muscle strain, I've been visiting the chiropractor to get my spine aligned (it's probably not related to the accident, but when checking on me after the accident they did find several things wrong with it).

the car itself is totaled, I can't drive it anymore, however I still had most of my stimulus check thanks to me still working due to being an "essential employee", and was able to get a new car within the week, just got to fix a few things about it and get it to pass inspection and I'll be good to go.

while things seem to have turned out ok in the end, this whole ordeal has taken a toll on me mentally, I mean, I may have been able to replace the car, but I still lost my old one, I still got in a pretty bad accident, and I still lost all that money I had saved.. and I guess the money I got from the government, which if I did not have, I'd be royally screwed, which is pretty fucked if you think about it. if we weren't in this crisis right now... I don't know what I'd do, the fact that I could only make this work because of that little bit of help... yea.. that doesn't make me feel good, I mean, maybe I should be grateful for it, and I am? but at the same time... I dunno, I don't like the fact I would have been fucked without it. but maybe I'm just caught up in all my negative emotions from going though something like this, I guess, I dunno, I'm just venting