I have been in the art community a long time before this account was created, I firstly started on deviantart with the same username

and I can't get out of this pit hole I'm into

I have tried to talk to people, I traide to promote my self, I tried to be more communicative, hey, even I give some gifts to close "friends" of mine, but I feel like nobody apreciates what I have done, or what I make, it's like, I do art, but people is afraid to tell me it's bad or something, hey, even made like some little commisions, I always said "free upgrades of the 3D model" but feels like people don't care what I ever do, even I can recall I made a model for someone, and then, after a time, my model was inexistant for him, or that seems (happened to me twice)

and I'm being like in this pit hole, since, always?

I don't know what to do, I tried to be positive all this time, I always try to be friendly, but it's hard to me, pretty hard, I'm pretty broken inside...