Soooo, yeh... This year is really making me feel like absolute shit... I'm fully aware to what I'm doing to myself, but I can't really find anything else to hide from my shitty, stressful everyday life, and from the emptyness that I feel after every single day. I'm not saying that I'm drunk 24/7, and I'm not doing hard liquor, but I have to get a bit "numb" every night to have a good sleep. Save your good tips/love speech/whatever to someone else, 'cus I won't listen to you.