Nothing to see here, folks. Just...writing off the top of my head. That's what this feature is for, yeah?

What does it mean to "matter"? So many people strive for their whole lives to be important, to "matter," to some degree, but what does that truly entail? Does it suffice to have a few people who care for you? Or, to "matter," do you have to have your name known by a great many people? And if so, then how many? What's the benchmark of importance; of "mattering?"

I think a lot about how some people have no inkling about the fact that I exist. Not in the sense of people I know ignoring me, but the actuality that there's people out there who have never met me or anyone who knows me, and have absolutely zero idea that I'm a creature that exists in the same universe as them. They're as blissfully ignorant to my existence as I am to the existence of billions of people. Something about knowing that disturbs me. Both that there's people I will never meet, never so much as know that they existed, and that I will have the same fate to billions of others. But does that make them any less important? Does that make me matter any less? Am I right to worry for those who I will never meet, and to feel unimportant to those who will never know anything of me? Is there just cause in the fear of attempting to make myself known to people who are already content, in the fear that I would somehow only be causing them distress?

I know these questions don't matter. I know none of it matters, in the grand scheme of things. And yet, because of those questions, I often find myself questioning just how much I "matter."

I hope you have a wonderful day ♥