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Figuring out my art Issue (or lack of it)
5 years ago
So, been in an art famine for a bit, either it coming from a lack of energy or a lack of satisfaction with the process, and after a spending time doing some self reflection:
1. Zero routine: any routine I had with doing art has been thrown out the window the past few months, and the social isolation been keeping attention on preserving my sanity. Much energy been to personal entertainment and reaching out to folks, as well as cooking more often. Any moment of creative thought usual occurs around midnight and involves TTRPG prep and planning. Since last week, plugging my laptop upstairs with the tablet hooked up in the morning has been helping with setting back up a routine. When it's already setup, I can just sit down and start.
2. Bad thoughts: the last time I was doing a lot of art was that it was a necessary to make rent. That last month, I was only one month away from becoming homeless and that was a horrifying prospect. Luckily, I got a well paying job that has been still treating me well during all this social isolation, but those few months after I got a job every time I looked at my tablet it reminded me of that scenario of being homeless. Those months of avoiding doing art then lead to the lack of routine, and then the lack of routine made me feel like a bad artist, and that just circles back around to another reason of avoidance. I understand this and have been coming to understanding this: it was a bad period and it shouldn't stop me from producing more art. The past week of new routine has been helping me with this.
3. Lack of Improvement: this may just be 'artist self-judgment' but I desire to improve my styling and technique, but every time I do, I think its garbage or doesn't look right or it should be better. It usually ends with me throwing out that work and feeling bad about it. But been trying new things recently, and looking at others work, and honestly, I shouldn't be ashamed about something looking off if it's new. Its new and will only get better. "Sucking at something is the first step to being awesome at something."
Self-reflection is always good. A routine will become exercise to keep it good. Wish me luck.
1. Zero routine: any routine I had with doing art has been thrown out the window the past few months, and the social isolation been keeping attention on preserving my sanity. Much energy been to personal entertainment and reaching out to folks, as well as cooking more often. Any moment of creative thought usual occurs around midnight and involves TTRPG prep and planning. Since last week, plugging my laptop upstairs with the tablet hooked up in the morning has been helping with setting back up a routine. When it's already setup, I can just sit down and start.
2. Bad thoughts: the last time I was doing a lot of art was that it was a necessary to make rent. That last month, I was only one month away from becoming homeless and that was a horrifying prospect. Luckily, I got a well paying job that has been still treating me well during all this social isolation, but those few months after I got a job every time I looked at my tablet it reminded me of that scenario of being homeless. Those months of avoiding doing art then lead to the lack of routine, and then the lack of routine made me feel like a bad artist, and that just circles back around to another reason of avoidance. I understand this and have been coming to understanding this: it was a bad period and it shouldn't stop me from producing more art. The past week of new routine has been helping me with this.
3. Lack of Improvement: this may just be 'artist self-judgment' but I desire to improve my styling and technique, but every time I do, I think its garbage or doesn't look right or it should be better. It usually ends with me throwing out that work and feeling bad about it. But been trying new things recently, and looking at others work, and honestly, I shouldn't be ashamed about something looking off if it's new. Its new and will only get better. "Sucking at something is the first step to being awesome at something."
Self-reflection is always good. A routine will become exercise to keep it good. Wish me luck.
I would gladly commission you at the drop of a hat, if that means anything-
Your art is still awesome,
YOU are still awesome,
And therefore, you deserve to *feel* awesome as well-
There’s no pressure to get right back into art either- no shame in a hiatus, no matter how long, or whatever the reasoning may be!
You do what’s best for your health, whether it be physical or mental ^^