Okay, I have a confession after years of making art and sharing fanfiction stories to everyone online who loves to enjoy my work. However, after doing this countless times till 3 years ago with the passing of my dad that something change within me. I went through a long withdrawal, depression and anxiety even I was barely eating but when I tried I get sick. Heck, sometimes I would just rather stay in bed. I tried to break through it with a brave face but deep down I was miserable. It's why my passion for making art dwindle. Make a long story short I managed to get help talk to some people (even family members and friends) about the issues and they guide me through a rough time in my life. I tried to get back into resuming my passion for art but I just lost the drive for it. Most of the time I had to force myself to get back into the groove but it was no avail. Suddenly, I had to take time off to work on myself some more and come back with a fresh mindset and attitude. So now I'm dealing with laziness and procrastination, which is another flaw. Now all I did was just making art and spitting stories like that at a constant pace and sometimes even at a slow pace. I realize that I shouldn't just do it for everyone to share my artwork and stories but I should do it for myself on what makes me happy to reignite my passion. As of now I must accept my flaws for holding me back and break down the walls of my procrastination and laziness. Instead of posting stuff on demand I should do it at my leisure time and schedule as well as my work and home life. And not just rushing like a headless chicken. At this moment in time that's what I'm gonna do just dialed back on my pace and just take things slow for now on with art, stories as well as balancing work, home and personal life even taking break from it all to work on me for the time being. Sorry for the long rant just wanted to get this off my chest because its been on my mind lately with all this happening. Too much stress is just getting to me (mostly from my job) as well as catching up on some bills since funds are a little tight at the moment. I've been starting putting and turning in applications at stores and online to pick up a second job to bring in extra income. Hopefully, I can pick one soon so that can be a stress buffer relief from my current job. Sorry again, this is just getting too long. I'm gonna focus on myself as well as working on both my physical and mental health as well as the stress of it all might need to work on my sleep schedule as well instead of being up all hours till the morning like I'm doing now.