Hi, I dunno if writing this journal is a good idea or not, and I'll probably delete this if it's ignored (which is understandable tbh). But I'm not sure what to do.

One of my dogs, a Pomeranian named Logan, passed away yesterday. He was very near and dear to me, my everything really, and he loved me very much. Everytime he'd see me in the morning he'd run towards me begging for tummy rubs and pets. He was so playful and probably the nicest, pacifist dog I've ever met.

Now he's gone, and his last moments keep replaying in my mind (he was in so much pain) and I keep thinking of how I wish I could've spent more time with him, or played with him and his toy or pet him more. Everytime I think this I just cry uncontrollably, and it just hurts.

I dunno what I should do. Should I just tune out for a while? Should I just give in and just cry until I'm tired? Should I use it as fuel to motivate myself to do something, should I do vent art/memorial art? This is the first time I've experienced something like this so I'm very torn.

Any help or advice would be appreciated. Thanks.