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Another Life Update
5 years ago
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1/12/13
【Ｔｈｅ Ｂａｅｓ】
Hey everyone, It's been a long time since I was able to post! I promise that I didn't die, things have just been bad for a while.
After my last journal I did my classes, passed everything, and went to my internship which was 2 months of unpaid full time work back in my home state. It was going great until my last two weeks where one of the Drs decided to suddenly flip on me and made the whole last two weeks a miserable hell hole and made me feel as though I wasn't enough for this field because I couldn't recite by heart EVERYTHING about pharmaceuticals that she wanted me to be able to talk about. Sorry ma'am, I just finished less than 2 years of schooling and we haven't touched pharm stuff since like the first year.
Anyway, I graduated on the last day of Feb, and a week later COVID struck my home state of NY, and everything shut down cold.
There were gas stations, medical centers, and groceries all TENTATIVELY open and that's it. The whole state just seemed to shut off and I was left without work, and unable to apply for jobs because no one was hiring, and unable to qualify for unemployment because I hadn't been working.
During this time my mother was diagnosed with two different types of cancer. One was removed entirely on biopsy, and the other was not able to be done the same. Her treatment and surgeries went on for a few months, but Chemo didn't work so they moved on to surgery. She only somewhat recently got it done, and they think they got everything, but this all started in the last week of my internship in Feb.
My depression had come back in full force and several new things that I don't have diagnosed but I could whole heartily say I have. I've been dealing with a lot of past traumas resurfacing, coming to terms with things that happened in my past is rough, and it's something I need help with at this point. I have plans to head back to therapy, thankfully, but it's a whole process that I'm working on.
In regards to my artwork, I had to take a break from the fandom for a while. All the drama that was going on was just too much and I felt it pushing me away from drawing in general over time. I found a different muse, I made a huge group of amazing friends, and I've been drawing for them primarily in the meantime just learning to love drawing again.
Now that I'm back in the saddle, I feel comfortable coming back and opening up for commissions and YCHs and working better on them. I'm of course in dire need of an income at this point so I'll be making this my full time job again (fingers crossed) in the meantime.
I greatly apologize to those who worried about me in my absence, I greatly apologize to anyone waiting on me for things, I'm currently working on them as we speak and progress should be expected to be much faster now. Thank you to everyone who understands the situation, and I'm sorry to those who don't. I don't have any other explanations other than life was too much and I had to put things not he backburner while I did my best to work through a lot of problems.
Love you all, thanks so much
-Hax
Sevren2112
~sevren2112
Damn, seems like this year is determined to put everyone through some kind of hell. Sorry to hear about your mother, I hope she can make a full recovery :) And congrats on graduating as well :D
Hax-The-Monster
~hax-the-monster
OP
When it rains it pours. But I'm trying to be positive about it all!
Sevren2112
~sevren2112
Oh yeap, it certainly has this year.
8BitFur
~8bitfur
Sorry things have been so rough. Hope they improve.
Hax-The-Monster
~hax-the-monster
OP
Me as well, thank you so much, your kind words mean a lot to me!
