It's September 17th, 2020 5:44 am EST. I've been having a hard time sleeping and getting to sleep. I need to check in, something I haven't done in a while.

Since mid June of this year, my mind has been ablaze with creativity, and making stuff look good in Terraria, Minecraft, and Starbound are the only vents that work. I'm lonely in the sense that I would like to have a significant other at night just to have someone to hold/someone to hold me (maybe some "fun times" on rare occasion). The state of the world on many levels scares me for the sake of the future, and my "talent" for sensing emotion (especially around the world) really solidifies this. I constantly have to keep myself mentally occupied so that I don't dwell on the negative things. Like certain Japanese circles, I attempt to make myself cry to feel better (it's a weird but beneficial science); since the start of the year, it's not been working; I fear I'm becoming "Vulcan" and more or less apathetic (which is fucked considering many people who know me say that I'm the most kind and compassionate person they've met).
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I need... a hug. And solace. And love. And this world could use a miracle or two. Maybe when The Veil disappears completely, things will change... ._.

I feel a bit better having gotten that off my back. Don't worry about me in certain regards - I won't do anything drastic.