You are wrong. You are loved and you are not alone and you would be missed.

maybe I would be but I dont know it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eQNw2FBdpyE
This maybe hard watching, but...I think it might help.

My best friend hung himself. I suppose it ended his suffering, the thing with suicide tho is that it doesn't really end suffering it just passes that pain on to the people who loved the deceased. From a purely selfish point of view I'm a different person because of my friends death. I cry a lot more I struggle to build friendships I worry so so much more that other people I am close to might do the same thing. Five years on and I still randomly burst into tears. I don't think it'll ever get easier to deal with.
So if there is a single person on the planet you care about, please don't do it

I dunno what it is if its just the monoteny and boredom of my everyday life now adays but like I dont think I wanna die but everything just feels like a slog like its only rainy days ahead and the sun doesnt shine anymore. Its just that nothing passes the days anymore i either sleep or I dont, no one talks to me anymore except for doctors and my mother and brother, my best friends dont want anything to do with me anymore. It all just feels so hopeless. But then I get those fleeting moments of joy every now and then and I think "my life isnt that bad" but then it just kinda seems to try and proove me wrong. I dunno but thanks for sharing your point of view its nice to some people takes the time out of their days to even respond to me.

'tis the season for depression and hopelessness. I live in the far North and it always gets bad this time of year.

Please don't do anything irreversible. Seek professional help if need be.

This atmosphere of extreme right is likely to subside once 45 is out of office and stops empowering them...but it won't go away completely.

We all have to stick it out as best we can and persevere. Whether that means tuning out the media and friends and family who no longer speak to our personal views...whatever you have to do to stay sane in an insane world. I say this because your voice is needed and will be needed when the time comes.

Societal views ebb and floe. We had 8 years of Obama and we are experiencing the backlash. What is interesting is the right wingers are so dumb that they out themselves as righteous bigots and racists. Take pity on them and their ignorance.

It's hard to be social with this pandemic going on and it makes things hard for people like you who need the interaction. But we want you to be there when this is all over. You will be missed and your passing will have an impact on the future. There may be someone who you haven't met yet who will need you to be there for them, like we are trying to be there for you. You don't know it now, and can't see it yet, but every person you come in contact with and every person you touch you have an impact on.

We can offer words of friendship and encouragement, offer advice and wisdom, because we need you to find a way to keep going. Suicide is not an answer. If you kill yourself, They win...and we all know They don't deserve to win.

*Hugs*

May you find some peace and solace in what I and others have shared with you.