Well I want to write a lot but to put a TLDR right now : How do I get more people to look at my smut? And do you feel that sometimes it is not worth it to draw for others that you'd like to draw?

I am sure if you notice that my upload is quite sporadic to say the least. I have been drawing quite a bit but when it comes to putting stuff here I kind of have little motivation to do so. This might sound like I am chastising people here but the thing is that most of my output is sketches that I like to do but those get barely any attention or looks (because it can be hard to look at) and also I would've been okay with a sketchdump if FA could somehow implement a multiupload then things might feel more laid back (what I am saying is that I miss pre-pornban Tumblr, I know that there are alternatives and I am there but it is hard to get used to them).

I do wish to have more feedback, not only to get the asspats and praise but also the critique and pointing out mistakes as well.

My main place is to go into Discord servers and randomly put pics in the respective art channels that they may have. One of the biggest things is that sometimes I will just idle in a server with nothing to do and not knowing how to participate or enter a conversation. I have left as many discord servers as I have stayed because I did nothing as soon as I entered, not even putting art. Again this is all my problem and I will have to deal with it. I kinda wonder if maybe I should make my own server but I feel that it will just be a barren wasteland and I also feel that having one more place to keep tabs be too much, I barely can keep up with the servers that I do have an investment in (To be honest I already have a Discord server but that is more to have a place to talk about my Pokemon TTRPG game that I am running).

I don't want to get a Twitter even though that seems to be the go to for furry art. More than twitter being a pain to navigate I just hate everything that Twitter represents, I can't stand the general vibe of the place and I really don't want to do anything with it on a personal level. You aren't a bad person at all if you use Twitter but I'd rather not.

There is Pillowfort that is the answer to Tumblr but I have barely done stuff there... maybe cause I barely know people there.

I think the biggest problem is that I barely participate myself (I also barely favorite art here as well, only tending to favorite pics that I have a personal stake) so maybe if I do more overall I will get more attention but I feel that I will barely get any attention even if I do things so I gravitate towards not.

So I don't know if this entire thing had a point in the end. I did upload some pics so I hope I don't look like I am not wanting to try but I just feel that it barely matters when I do. I guess I just have to push through the indifference, if nothing else to have a place to catalog everything.

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Also something that I want to share is my feelings on drawing art for others. Sometimes I feel like I see some character or whatever and feel like I want to draw them on the spot and then show the owners of the character and have the Notice me Senpai part of my brain light up. But most of the time I just don't do it, partially because of laziness but sometimes I just feel that I won't get any recognition at all. Maybe it is selfish of me to ask for some feedback (not necessarily positive but some recognition of what you have done) but I have been burned before on people that wouldn't give me the time of day even if I did something for them. Granted the people that did notice that I did something for them outnumber those that do not but it still kinda ruins the momentum a bit when it is a roll of the dice and you feel like an asshole for prodding (I will say that there was a couple of times where I felt that I was being ridiculed for drawing some fanart for someone).


So later on I will make that list of characters that I have been threatening for a long while now, hope you are all having a good day.