Hmmm.. cant say I would know what to tell you friend, but either way I'm always here for ya.

Thank you... it's a rough ride and I'm not sure what to tell myself anymore. But knowing I can count on you is helpful.

Oh I know. Its a rough ride no matter what, but like you said I'm here if you need someone to count on to chat to.

Thank you love. *Hugs Tightly*
Sometimes those are the Greatest words to hear.

*hugs tightly back.* Your welcome, sadly I know to well what it's like to see the doctor often. Hopefully though things will be back to normal sooner then later

Yes, speaking of which...how is your doctor stuff going? Have they cleared you yet?

Still getting an infusion and that wont end till July next year roughly.

Wow....I'm so sorry. I thought all of that would be behind you by now. *Hugs gently*

*Hugs* No its a long process. Not done over night

Imma put this in a note, I hope you are eating well.

Heh, if by eating well you mean gaining a few pounds then yes....

Nyu I mean eating alittle of everything greens, fruit (banana is good for potassium) meats, fish and stuff .u.

Yes, but everything contains iron some thing's more than other's, but everything has it and iron is draggy's enemy.

*Hugs gently.* Just take care of yourself, hon, and you know I'm here if you need me.

*Purrs while gently hugging* Thank you....Knowing this makes all the difference sometimes.

*Hugs tight* We'll be here when you're ready to come back. Just do what you need to, to look after yourself and like Grace said, I'm always here if you should need me.

*Hugs while purring softly* Thank you.... I believe it's my iron issues that are the culprit.... this just isn't me.

*hugs* Take time to care for yourself. If you need space then take space. Sometimes you just have to do that for yourself and it's okay. The true friends will understand and will be here when you need them and when you return

*Hugs Tightly* Thank you....I'm taking time and distancing when thing's are at their worse... I believe it is an iron issue though more than anything. I just want those who do care to understand is all.

*Purrs softly* Thank you... I'm doing what I can to sort thing's and keep stuff straight. There's just so much going on at one time right now....

That is good advice my friend....and something I need to do more of. I don't think I get out enough these day's to be honest, but then with this Pandemic...it's kinda hard to take a deep breath with a mask on.

*Hugs gently* Thank you....and you're absolutely right my friend.
But you do realize this is not a "Man Made" disease right?
It is a common disease found in Bats, but has accidentally been transferred to humans because some of us just cannot leave Nature alone sometimes.....

Agreed.

Thank you love, you're so Very kind....*Hugs*

Awwww......the two of you are a Great Couple my friend, but are suuuure that's all you want, just to listen? I mean wouldn't you rather participate.....or even watch just a little through a slightly cracked blind?
(I truly appreciate what you are saying my friend, but I cannot help but have a little fun with you too ya'know? So before you kill me with that cold hard look, just know I'm playing about the participating part....but you're free to watch.😛)

LOL!! I was So hoping you wouldn't take that the wrong way as I've not known you to be very openly playful.
You know me by now, I'm a Very playful Dragon and love to have a good laugh here and there, I pride myself on being pretty quick witted so you never really know just what I'm going to say...Hell I don't even know what I'm going to say until it's already out there and I'm proof reading....

I understand about the RP, I've seen a lot of good relationships good relationships fall apart for less. I Do Rp, but seldom and Only with Very close friends who I know I can trust not to take it out of context or make more bbn of it than just a bunch of text.
I prefer doing little on going jokes or the short little rpg's in comments.

As for upsetting your Wonderful wife or causing trouble between the two of you, I would Never intentionally do Anything to cause that and if I Ever say Anything out of line to Either of you, please let me know and I will make Every effort to correct that.
I'm just a fun loving Dragon who likes to play and have fun.

*Purrs softly* YAAAY draggy can be himself!
No, you didn't give any impression otherwise....I was just taking a moment to clarify because I've done the same thing with other people and got a mix of results....some laughed and got the humor in it while others cussed me out threatening bodily harm.
So when I threw it out there I Really wasn't to sure how you would react....
Speaking of your lovely Wife, How she been I haven't seen or heard hide nor hair of her in a Very long time!

Of course I could always go and pole my nose in on her page, but again, I didn't want to start anything between the two of you. You are Both Great friends to me and I want to keep it that way without useless jealousy. I'm married also and my Wife is Borderline Possessive over her draggy so I fully understand and try hard Not to cross any line's.

That's Great! I'll have to give it a look....or two.
To be honest these past few weeks .....months maybe? Have been pretty rough on me as described in my previous journal, so I really haven't been checking in nearly enough or keeping up with what been getting posted...I feel bad for that, but then again I needed some time out to sit in the corner and collect myself a bit.
However if all goes well...then I'm happily back to continue tormenting you two....

*Chuckles softly from time out corner* You are brave, Herr Woof....this promises to be fun.

Eh, same here honestly. Just rest and see what happens. It might be a "levels" thing related to what the hematocrit is doing.

I believe it is....but it effects the mind as well so it's causing me issues on a verity of levels right now.
I haven't felt this way since I was diagnosed....and I don't like it.

That's understandable. I'm sure it feels a bit like the rug being pulled out from under you at the moment. Hopefully in a few more weeks things feel more sorted out.

Yes I know once I get this back under control thing's will be okay...only this time I'm going to work much harder on keeping it proper. I cannot deal with this I'm feeling now.

*hugs tightly*

I mean, it's not unsurprising, what with the...

*Gestures broadly at everything*

There's a pall over the world and I think a lot of people are feeling it. I certainly am. It's just so hard to anything these days.

0.0 *Marvel's at the Birds Huge gesturing* ....I didn't know those little flappers could spread so Wide or move so Quickly! How is it that you cannot fly?

I agree the current state of society is shit right now with the Pandemic and politics running a Muck.
I'm sure a lot of that plays into these feelings, that and the Ferritin levels currently in my blood. I'm not feeling well and suffering from random heart palpitations, migraines, and dizziness just to name a few. All the same issues as I had Before my diagnosis so that's certainly a part of it also.

So how are you doing my friend?

*Waves flappers*

Oh these aren't mine, I uh... borrowed 'em from an albatross.


Aaah the 2020 struggle is real, it's the rut that just keeps on giving. At least if I fossilize in this tar pit I'll leave behind a beautiful fossil.

*Hugs Tightly while Curiously eyeing the Albatross Flappers*

Absolutely you would, and draggy would frame and put you on the wall for all to see....and of course remember to dust you off once in awhile.

Yeah, this year has been Pure 100% Crap Cake with extra thick Crap iceing.
I Honestly cannot remember a year that has been so Devastating to not only the economy but the world in itself. Everyday the death toll continues to rise and yet no one understands if you just wore a mask we could stop thos Pandemic...so simple, just wear a Mask.

And the last month wasn't any better. There's spillover into 2021, but at least we ahve hope now, what with vaccines and falling cases and the general mess and muddle of the world sorting itself out a little. We can only hope this is the start of steady improvement to a bright and shining future.

Agreed. Here our infection numbers have finally began to fall a bit, but they seem to have No idea how to administer the vaccine.
First it was supposed to be Hospital workers and I'm absolutely fine with that, then the elderly (75+) then the retirement homes, then prisons, then there's an argument over the school teacher's being next...yet there's Absolutely no mention of working shmos who are out there day in and day out like police, firefighters, emergency workers and truck/Lorry drivers. I am submerged in groups of people from all over the state and Country who for Some reason Refuse to wear a mask! I wear one and so far I've managed to dodge the bullet to date...but how long before I cock that chamber?
And if that wasn't enough, our governor decided to send X-Thousand Vaccines to DC because most of the people who work in DC live in Virginia and DC didn't order enough.... so he shorted us to help DC whose largest population live in the very state that he shorted. Politics at it's Finest!

There's too much overpromising and underdelevering. A lot of politics and planning without any actual idea of what it takes to get shots into arms. Yet once again things that sounds good on paper are being pushed into a messy world that laughs at them.

Things are better here, we're doing border workers, then hospital staff then old folks homes then everyone. It helps that the average Joe isn't saturated in virus, we can take our time and work on strengthening our defenses. (Though we're STILL getting idiots breaking the rules and spawning outbreaks. A week long lockdown now because someone HAD to see their friend, and go wandering across our biggest city, the very day they were told to isolate.)

Its okay hon you come back when your ready !! ^v^ 💕💕💕

Oh, just like that huh? Birdy gonna write her draggy off just like that? No "What's wrong, what's happening....We care about you...Birdy cares about her draggy..." none of that huh?
Well....I'm not sure how to process that...*Tucks head under left wing, peaking between my feathers at you while Sobbing Loudly* ☹😥😭

I thought you were being serious but if you are only playing with me on this i am going to be far from impressed ........... !! ^v^ 😑😑😑😑😑😡

I am being serious love, I do feel this way and am sort of back and forth at the moment. I try to have fun when I can as it is a distraction from these feelings.
As you may know my iron levels is an issue and I have suffered some health issues as a result. Currently I believe the Ferritin in my blood is way to high as I have begun to suffer random heart palpitations, dizziness and feelings of detachment.
I have HH (hereditary hemochromatosis) and this affects all of the body's organs through what is know as iron overload. It is a mutation within my DNA, it is rare and there are Three different forms of this mutation, I happen to have the most aggressive of the three meaning that All iron I ingest is stored and not passed. This also means I will likely die from the effects of this condition.
So far I have suffered liver damage, possible heart damage and a bit of brain damage as a result, most notably some memory and thought clarity issues, however I'm working on those and have successfully recovered some of these, primarily the mental issues that are related.
I believe at least part of my detached feelings spawn from this and my Ferritin levels as I am experiencing feelings of mistrust and delusions about certain friendships that I Believe or at least want to believe are real.
I had a pint of blood drawn and that's helped a bit, but I'm still not right yet...I feel complete exhaustion from the time I wake up until I go to bed and this is not normal for me. These are all thing's I experienced Before I was diagnosed with this cursed crap. As a result I have scheduled an appointment with my oncologist for the 26th of this month, I would Love to see her sooner but that was the soonest I could get.
In short I feel like shit Most day's. I don't normally talk about my problems or go through the trouble of explaining my condition to people as One- I'm not looking for sympathy. And Two- it's really no one's business the hellish shit i have to endure.
But you I consider a close friend and someone that I could share this with... if for some reason you doubt my sincerity or think this is just some attempt at getting attention from you or Anyone else, then I do so Deeply Apologize and will kindly offer for you to Google any and everything I have said to learn the facts for yourself.
I believe it is better to laugh about these thing's than to cry and if I have come across in some way that offends, then I apologize for that too.
In short, I'm shit and you should probably rid yourself of me and having ever bothered with such a waist as me....

The way you were playing then hon had me concerned okay i love you and wont you well !! ^v^ 💕