It's been another interesting year of self growth,Lonely but I've learned a lot , trying to trust and understand, that I am loved even though I don't hear much from my loved ones, and I've grown even more from my meditation.but I come from abuse and I've hang around fucked up people I shouldn't have, I've made mistakes but I've learned from them and turned away from the bad,but I'm scared for life ,but I can move forward even with my baggage but I have control over IT, but I have my limits and if I snap , it's because you didn't listen to my warning ,i do a lot to inform ,but I know practice makes perfect, and that's important maybe I can be happy. I've made plenty of happy memories even though I'm constantly sad ,i still get some genuinely happy times so thanks. All i wish is people in my life would try a little harder ,if you know me ,I'm a very understanding and helpful being,but I also speak my mind .But i might have to let go of some ,maybe I'll find new adventures or they will come when they are ready we're all in the same boat ,so Keep leveling up ,you can do everything with the right mindset and ,at Best know your limits and perhaps push through them.


The Pills have removed so much pain I've, been in for years .I'm looking forward to the tissue sample from my Duodenal irritation, and the stomach acid in my esophagus , even the other sample results I'll get answers on Dec 3rd. I'm looking forward to my doctors appointment about getting something relaxing or whatever.. ptsd is a drag, and my gender appointment is coming up as well. Life can be a drag when you are handicapped,but also full of wonder