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Fix A Large Rift
5 years ago
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Well, I was back again after disabling my account. It is really a bad habit and I keep on doing it. It was a really bad year for all of us, especially on my. October was a complete wreck, and then the beginnings of November also a big wreck....
There are always bad shits keep on following me.... and I unprepared of every bad mojo that is brought to me....
I made a lot of mistakes..... friendship ends, trusts broken, marked as an attention whore... named it everything bad..... there are just a lot that has been happening. By the time you realized what has happened, it is already too late....
Everything that has been happening right now is all because of that one fateful day when someone I really looked up too decided to ditched me and reveal the truth - setting off a chain reaction of bad things...... well, domino effect’s a bitch, isn’t it?
I don’t know if you all grew tired of me keep on breaking down and such, but if some of you do, I a understand and I deserve it. The door is there for you if you want to leave. But, if you still stay, then I thank you for being really patient for me.
There are just too much rift that I have to fix. And I don’t know how to start.... not to mention that my trust issues had grown even worse.
There are always bad shits keep on following me.... and I unprepared of every bad mojo that is brought to me....
I made a lot of mistakes..... friendship ends, trusts broken, marked as an attention whore... named it everything bad..... there are just a lot that has been happening. By the time you realized what has happened, it is already too late....
Everything that has been happening right now is all because of that one fateful day when someone I really looked up too decided to ditched me and reveal the truth - setting off a chain reaction of bad things...... well, domino effect’s a bitch, isn’t it?
I don’t know if you all grew tired of me keep on breaking down and such, but if some of you do, I a understand and I deserve it. The door is there for you if you want to leave. But, if you still stay, then I thank you for being really patient for me.
There are just too much rift that I have to fix. And I don’t know how to start.... not to mention that my trust issues had grown even worse.
I'm not sure what has been happening. But: If there are people out there who is harming you. All you can do is just ignore them. They have no power over what you do. They can't control your life. We all live once. Treasure it. Do stuff that makes you happy. And ignore what other people think and feel about it.
We all have one of those kind of people who dislike us for whatever reasons. Who would take advantage on others. By doing their best to bring us all down for whatever personal reasons.
Just take things slowly. Don't rush, or let people gain trust in you so easily. Things takes time.
Right now, all I want is action. I want prove that you actually will change and stop with this whole "I quit this fandom" and all of your temper tantrums. Can you do that?
As long as you can do that. As long as you really put an effort and show us that you'll change, then I'll accept.
These breakdowns are just concerning, it shows that there are still many things to deal with on your side. But I am sure you can do it, just try to sort out what is important to do and what maybe not. Maybe there are people more worth to keep up with and some you maybe shouldn't be sad about to lose.
This year wasn't good for all of us, we can just keep going and try to be better. I really hope things will become better on your side and that you can feel better again soon. One step after the next, I'd say.