Let me start from the beginning.

For most of my life, I've never been very good with healing. My diet consisted mostly of what i could afford, most of which was not good food. and top that off with very VERY bad periods.
So, I always suspected that I had an iron deficiency.

Lets now fast forward to the beginning of 2019 When I learned that I'm diabetic. a lot of things fell into place on many symptoms that I was having. So, I started taking metformin. as well as other medications.

Now, lets go forward....I notice i'm losing strength, it's hard for me to breath, I could hear and feel my heart beating harder and faster than before, i could hear the blood rushing through my ears....I thought it was because of my medication.

Now, lets fast forward to January of this year.....

My health is drastically failing, I'm sick all the time, I'm pissing lava out my ass. >,< I have no appetite, a few times I had said that my medication is killing me.

I tell my Dr [she's actually a dr's assistant. I've never met my dr] And all she says is that it's better than insulin.

I'm losing my hair, my skin is super pale. I get super cold after a bowel movement, i'm shaky, still not really eating. Every step i take my heart is racing....I say more than once, that I feel like I'm dying.

Last couple of months, I start seriously thinking about writing a will. I worry that I won't make it to the UK. I worry that I will be leaving behind those that i love I worry that I am about to die.

The last month I changed my diet to fruits, nuts, and grains...I start feeling marginally better. But still super weak, and oh god so depressed.

What is wrnog with me??

I can't just "suck it up and go do something" I Can't! Why? Because I Am Dying. Fast forward now to this past Friday.

I go to have labwork done because I'm changing drs. [Finally!!]
Every step I take feel like I ran a 500 mile marathon. I'm dizzy, lightheaded, about to pass out. I have to sit or lean on something ever 3 steps.

I get my blood drawn, we later go home.

I flop on the bed. out of breath, freezing cold, my heart beating a mile a minute. I close my eyes and just....drift. n my mind, images flash of things I need to do should I pass.

1:30 am Saturday. I'm about to go to bed. Jayni comes home..comes into the bedroom and asks me how i'm feeling, in fact she's asking me a Lot of health related questions.

I find out the Lab called her at 1am to tell her to get me to the ER NOW,

Turns out....my hemoglobin was at 6 when for a woman it should be between 13 and 15.

I have to have a blood transfusion. 3 bags of blood. I'm kept overnight at the hospital. They draw blood, lots of blood, they're giving me lots of blood. [turns out btw i'm O-negative. rare blood type it seems] Many drs, and nurses I had spoke to. Even a social worker.

One came it and discussed me making a Will. o,O as well as what my instructions are should I pass. That was a convo I wasn't ready for.
I was told that I was indeed dying...my organs were starting to fail because I am severally anemic.

Now, remember what I said above, and how this has been like this for me for the past year.

after my blood transfusion...I feel oddly better. I'm up and about, I'm cleaning my hospital room, I took a standing shower [something i've not been able to do] I...Did things!

I was finally able to go home yesterday afternoon. Although I am not out of the woods yet. I have to have a trans-vaginal ultrasound to see if they can find the cause of the sever anemia.

We went to the state park before going home...and I walked around for quite a bit without needing to sit because of fatigue. Yes I still sat...but that was because i hadn't slept in 36 hours and was tired from that. But I wasn't out of breath, r feeling like i was about to pass out.

I really do feel better.

So yes....I was indeed dying. But I have a second chance now. And while I've already been making changes to better my health, I can now Physically start making those changes.

I still am trying to process just how close I came to dying. I'm still am trying to process how this could have been prevented so much sooner if my Dr's assistant just...Listened to me.

But Now, I think I'm on the right track, and I'm hoping to be better soon.

I am however, going to need help.

again, medicine, food and now a major medical bill.

So from now until further notice, Im open for all commissions. Including jewelry.

I also still have jewelry that I've already made for sale. Most of which I will consider serious offers on.

And now I'm going to go try to clean something.

Thank you everyone...I really do love you all.

And please...take care of yourselves!

<3