Im starting to get tired of people talking about how being in lockdown been bad for their mental health
i get it your an extrovert for me it's been great i had more people to talk to in my introverted way but what has been hurting me
is how these people who wanna talk to people still expect me to start the conversations
on top of that i still work retail making me increasingly more mentally unstable suicidal thoughts n all the full damn package
sometimes i wonder why i bother now adays when people just think "hey if you wanna talk to me just start very conversation and make sure you got a topic to talk about or im just not going to say anything" and why they think this cause some bull shit excuse "it's hard" "idk what to talk about" etc.

im just no longer mentally stable for people anymore so im just going to silently fade out of existances and look at porn, art, and do my own thing