I've honestly hit a big wall of depression lately. I'd normally do stuff to shrug it all off, but I can't this time around. I just feel hopeless after how much has happened this year and how little stuff changes. I can't be expected to be changing myself if no one is going to put in effort to do stuff with me. You want to suggest games that we have in common and can play? Then don't wait on me to make the call. Just ask and get a group together. I can't be expected to make the call on everything. Just makes it feel like my responsibility and job to be responding first to everything. I'm less out going cause of how often I have to be the first to engage in everything.

I can't make a lot of good choices right now. Maybe that's why I just see myself getting so little this year for Christmas. I probably did more bad than good. I just don't feel good about myself at all and just wish something can be wiped clean about me, but I just feel little hope in that regard. I just don't expect to be happy around others if I can't deliver on something.

TL;DR: I'm depressed as hell and won't be chatting much after tonight. So enjoy some days without me being on Discord and Twitter. Cause I just can't be happy right now. Ciao...