Well, we are nearly there. A little left to go, but 2020 is almost over. From start to finish this one has been a huge struggle for people all over the world, with many issues that will lead into 2021, but on the way to recovery. It is hard to really quantify how bad a year can be, but universally this has been a tough one. People have lost loved ones, jobs, and some even have lost parts of themselves.

The year wasn't easy, and it only got worse as time went on largely. I can definitely say that things got flipped upside down in my own life, and that it has been the most difficult year for my mental state I can imagine. A lot of what used to be fun has become a lot more numb. Many days it is an incredible struggle just to get out of bed, to go to work, to see the light at the end, or even to feel like we deserve to have a good life or a life at all.

But we do. We get out and we move forward. I managed to enroll in a decent healthcare plan for 2021, thanks in large part to an ad on FA here actually letting me know when it was enrollment time. Next year I am hoping to finally be able to begin going to therapy to work on my deteriorating mental state, as well as to try and fix any physical issues that are covered. I don't know that I will get better, or how long it will take if I do. Some scars it is hard to imagine healing. But we have to try. I learned this year just how incredible some of my friends are, supporting me without any complaining or issue, dedicating time and resources just to make me feel better when I was at the worst I had ever been.

I had some of the best memories of my life this last year. Many have become a bit bittersweet, but they were still amazing. Take care of each-other. Be kind, treat people with respect as often as you can, and take care of yourself. The world can be cruel, but it can also be great. Do your best to make it so.