Hello, everybody. Just dropping in to say merry Christmas. I hope your holiday was a happy one. Mine was pretty good. Strange not being able to celebrate with all of the family, thanks to covid. And with grandpa no longer being with us. But, with those we could be with, it was nice.



I am going back to my hiatus. I need to. Between my responsibilities at work piling up and my desire to say "yes" so I can make everyone happy, I feel like I'm on the verge of a full blown nervous breakdown. But lately, the PTSD attacks and the occasional flashbacks are getting more frequent. My decades, yes decades, of bottling things and hiding them is catching up with me. My stomach and head can't take it anymore. I wish to God I had treated this when I was younger.

Seriously, if there is some mental strain hampering your life, some past trauma or whatever, don't be afraid to get help. You can't suppress this shit. It will catch up to you. Strange that I use the word suppress when that is something my brain was doing and it took #metoo to bring it out.


Anyway, I miss you guys. I wish you all the best. Happy holidays. And may 2021 be a blessing to you and yours.