Needless to say that 2020 was ass. I was even setting up to high expectations for myself in November when the election was taking so long and this month feels like it was being stretched by an inter dimensional taffy puller. I especially had to be cautious when more people around my friends and family were catching COVID and self-quarantining. I usually thrive during the holidays but I scrapped by pretty much doing everything by myself.

The biggest positive of the year was basically coming out and indulging in a new part of the Internet that I was always ghosting on but never fully apart of it. Partially from denial and motivated by fear; I wasn't sure where I'd be going after a very long relationship turned sour and was struggling with my own mental/physical health issues. But joining the community was the best decision I could ever do to survive through this year. Even though I feel very disconnected jumping in during my early-30s, there's way more people that I connect with that I could have realized.

I'm glad I'm here. I'm glad I've willed Victor and Serena into existence and they make other people happy! I'm happy to be in a place where creativity and sexuality and body positivity flourishes like a raging waterfall. From everyone I've commissioned to friends I've made, it all made all the hardships of this year worth it.

2021 is not going to be easier. It's probably gonna be more difficult in ways I'm not expecting. But now I have a real space to be myself and have an amazing outlet for all my creative desires. I'm hoping I can actually write this time. I didn't get any progress done during NaNoWriMo...

But I made a proper outline from start to finish and that's something!

-FlexibleBear.