I hate today, i fucking hate it and I just burst into tears, It's a damn good thing I can type without looking at the keyboard
Tomorrow on the 16th is the 1 year anniversary of surrendering my cat Benjamin and I can't stop crying
It hurts so much still
so fucking much
Don't tell me I was a good cat mom for doing what I did, that doesn't help the pain of having to give him up and not knowing what happened to him after. I've had no closure on it at all

My heart legit hurts over this and I may not be around a lot for a few days >< I just...this is still a huge process as I'm still grieving giving him up.