Coming out.
4 years ago
Hey all,
Its been over a month now since I came out to my dad. Iy was a very emotional and tear filled situation. I never actually thought I would do it. I never thought I would have the courage to. But here I am. Still not out publicly in my town (I dont want to be lynched or shot) but I feel lighter. Carrying things on your shoulders eith nowhere to rest will drag you down harder than you realize. There were times that I thought of ending my own life. I found a support group and joined anonymously and would stay up late crying in the fetal position hating who I was and unable to accept and love myself.
Thats where a large issue is. We have to love ourselves before we can be who we truly are. There is nobody on this planet who's opinion of you should mean more than your own. We are all stumbling blindly through this. There are no guides. There is no gold paint to guide us. We are together and alone. We can have companions on our travels of self discovery but each new step forward has to be your own.
Its a long unending road before us all but its the journey that matters. The decisions along the way define who we are. Each and every one of us is a special unique being and we must learn to accept ourselves and each other.
If any one of you is struggling or confused there are people who will listen and help. Anf if you feel like there isn't just reach out. Even I can offer a pearl of wisdom from time to time.
We all have the capacity for love.
~Tez
Its been over a month now since I came out to my dad. Iy was a very emotional and tear filled situation. I never actually thought I would do it. I never thought I would have the courage to. But here I am. Still not out publicly in my town (I dont want to be lynched or shot) but I feel lighter. Carrying things on your shoulders eith nowhere to rest will drag you down harder than you realize. There were times that I thought of ending my own life. I found a support group and joined anonymously and would stay up late crying in the fetal position hating who I was and unable to accept and love myself.
Thats where a large issue is. We have to love ourselves before we can be who we truly are. There is nobody on this planet who's opinion of you should mean more than your own. We are all stumbling blindly through this. There are no guides. There is no gold paint to guide us. We are together and alone. We can have companions on our travels of self discovery but each new step forward has to be your own.
Its a long unending road before us all but its the journey that matters. The decisions along the way define who we are. Each and every one of us is a special unique being and we must learn to accept ourselves and each other.
If any one of you is struggling or confused there are people who will listen and help. Anf if you feel like there isn't just reach out. Even I can offer a pearl of wisdom from time to time.
We all have the capacity for love.
~Tez