I've been quiet and have lacked uploads here due to my severe depression and anxiety after the events of what happened to my family and myself. And I'm sure many people know why and understand that I needed lots and lots of time alone. For myself: I'm feeling a little better but the scars mentally will probably take a lot more time to heal and that's something that can't be done easily. With that being said, I'm not sure how I feel about myself considering after what has happened. I never lost a sibling before at the worst possible time. Sure, we had a lot of disagreements but we had our share of wonderful memories when we were just kids, though I will not say much what he did and what he does as this is a family matter. I will continue to upload stuff here but expect art/stories to be much slower than before. This pandemic has driven me up the wall and I can't help but feel stuck at my own house much longer. Though, I do promise that I will try and work hard as a small-time artist myself. I may also consider taking more commissions as I've accepted some. If you'd like me to write a story, I can do that too but with a price as well depending how long you want the story. I've been on a writer's block for so long that I don't know what to do anymore and I was extremely close in retiring myself entirely in the community and even considered 'deactivating DragonX1010.'

But I didn't go through with it. Not because I lost motivation of myself and not because I was running out of ideas. But because I lost a valuable family member. If things don't go well for me in the end, I may have to reconsider for it to change my life a bit. And don't get me wrong, everything that I've experienced was incredibly positive and I was having an amazing time with my new friends. I probably would've been lost in life without the help of all the support that I got. But I know this is a selfish way to say but I feel like I needed 'more.' Just a bit more support to help keep my feet on the ground. I still feel lost after all that has happened to me and I can't help but feel too distracted and couldn't concentrate on my works anymore. With that said, I still want to create works and be myself so I don't want this 'thing' to be taken away from me.

I hope this clears this up for me a bit as I written this journal and update of you. Currently, I am working on a commission for somebody and I would be happy to share some more works here. The reason I'm going to Twitter often is because it's a lot easier and I don't have to write down a loooong description about the drawing that I've been doing. However, I digress as I will continue to share my works here with friends and my watchers here. I've also planned on sharing my top 3 favourite 2020 video game reviews (along with some drawings) here as well as the list is controversial but I think you all know why I didn't do that.

Thanks for coming in to view my works and reading many of my past stories as time has changed here. I'm sure a lot of new readers out there are still enjoying my old as well as new works here. As for Flash, it is gone so I'm afraid you'll have to find other ways to view my interactive stories here. Apologies for the inconveniences.

Thanks and love you all~

~DragonX1010

# I may also consider doing another Smash Tournament for a free commission that I may work on but that all depends on my entire mood. Don't hold your breath as this will happen because this is a 30% of that happening.