Hey all...

So here we are again, me disappearing once again after saying I was back. So...where the fuck have I been? Well, mainly I was taking a hard look at myself and asking myself why I was doing the things I do? I started this page at one point as a sort of roleplaying page as sort of...and escape from my real self, so I made up this ubber sexy version of the person I always wanted to be....and that person just so happens to be female.

Yes children, your favorite white bun is a trans, not the character, me, the person typing this journal in the real. It only took me pretenting to be a girl online for ten plus years as a way to destress and as a happy space for me to figure this shit out. In the past seven months, I have come out to pretty much every person in my life and started HRT and am working on presenting as a woman full time. Go figure, huh?

So you all must be thinking now, what is going to happen to this page? At the moment, I have no clue. I used this page and my bunnny version of me as a way to cope...I guess cope with being a closeted trans person for most of their life. I wanna say I will be back soon, but...I honestly can't say if this page will be active hardly at all after I post this.

One thing is clear though, this place and it's community in a way help to find myself and help hold me together while I was still figuring myself out, and that will always mean so much to me. So if you liked my writings and the art I posted....thank you. I thank you because you helped me, even if it might only be in a small way, helped me figure out who I wanted to be.

I don't want to say this is good bye for sure, but...at least for now, I will see you somewhere someday.

I love all of you
~Lily