Hang in there and stay awesome.

thanks. i'm trying... things feel kinda dark right now. trying.

The old "Trust in god, but tie your camel tight" approach tends to work for me. I try to be unguarded but keep ready.
I hope things will work out for you!

"Speak softly and carry a big stick", they say.

Okay, this is not exactly the right term... But... Trust, but always keep a skeptic's eye. Knowing that people will adamantly promote and defend concepts they may have heard in passing without the need to try and prove them.

Hope everything is going OK Michi Michi.