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Voicing Out (2nd March 2021)
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Hello everyone, I am going to make Voicing Out a series in my journals for me to voice out my thoughts randomly on my journals. I trust my watchers enough. I mean you guys have been amazing in giving me support especially for the CPAP machine so I trust this community very much with my thoughts. I know I have voiced out other issues I have in the past but I just want to continue to do it because it helps relaxes me and put my mind at ease.
Wonky Sleep Schedules
At night, it's really weird for me to maintain a sleep schedule because usually a lot more people talk to me when I am close to falling asleep instead of when I wake up. So, I end up talking with friends up past 1am and it is destroying my sleep. It's because I feel lonely when throughout the day since most of my friends are asleep during that time. I'd love to talk to people but I feel like my sleep just gets ruined because of it. I need to somehow tell myself that I maybe can talk to them in the morning when I wake up so that I can get my sleep schedule straight. The CPAP machine is helping but my bad habit of staying up late is the other part in making me tired. I hope I can get people to talk to me during my mornings, which is the time where people are already relaxing from their day of work. I just wish I have more people within my timezone (GMT+8) to talk to during my work hours or while I work to keep me preoccupied.
Losing Muscle Memory?
Drawing's been rough for me recently and I have been trying it about and it just feels like I have lost muscle memory. The way I draw feels different, the way my mind translates the drawing to the canvas is different and it just doesn't feel right at all. It's been making me put off my drawings a lot; what more with constant comparing to other much greater artists with their works has affected me a lot to not draw. I need to get out of the habit of comparing my art with other people and just draw for myself and you guys. I just wonder though, would you guys be okay with my art even if it is just rough simple doodles or practices I upload to FA? Or would you prefer just complete works to be on my gallery instead? I'd like to hear your output on this.
Thanks for reading up to this point if you have. I may not reply to your journal comments but I do read hem and I cherish them a lot. You all have been so supportive with responding to my journals so far and it always makes me smile when I read them. I hope everyone has had a nice week of March so far.
Wonky Sleep Schedules
At night, it's really weird for me to maintain a sleep schedule because usually a lot more people talk to me when I am close to falling asleep instead of when I wake up. So, I end up talking with friends up past 1am and it is destroying my sleep. It's because I feel lonely when throughout the day since most of my friends are asleep during that time. I'd love to talk to people but I feel like my sleep just gets ruined because of it. I need to somehow tell myself that I maybe can talk to them in the morning when I wake up so that I can get my sleep schedule straight. The CPAP machine is helping but my bad habit of staying up late is the other part in making me tired. I hope I can get people to talk to me during my mornings, which is the time where people are already relaxing from their day of work. I just wish I have more people within my timezone (GMT+8) to talk to during my work hours or while I work to keep me preoccupied.
Losing Muscle Memory?
Drawing's been rough for me recently and I have been trying it about and it just feels like I have lost muscle memory. The way I draw feels different, the way my mind translates the drawing to the canvas is different and it just doesn't feel right at all. It's been making me put off my drawings a lot; what more with constant comparing to other much greater artists with their works has affected me a lot to not draw. I need to get out of the habit of comparing my art with other people and just draw for myself and you guys. I just wonder though, would you guys be okay with my art even if it is just rough simple doodles or practices I upload to FA? Or would you prefer just complete works to be on my gallery instead? I'd like to hear your output on this.
Thanks for reading up to this point if you have. I may not reply to your journal comments but I do read hem and I cherish them a lot. You all have been so supportive with responding to my journals so far and it always makes me smile when I read them. I hope everyone has had a nice week of March so far.
Weirdly my conversation times are also often enough when i need to sleep and it needs some discipline as well to put the phone away.
Regarding your second paragraph about posting sketches and the damned comparison all the time...
Post sketches!
I have decreased heavily on drawing time for mostly the similar reason, but haven't stopped and am very hard working on getting that nasty habit of always comparing to bearable level. So far I haven't reached a point were i am happy with the result, ut is so difficult to get it out id the system.
I wish you luck with this and hope for you to get to a point where you can enjoy other artists art without feeling guilty anymore.
-Kaz