...and wow! It's been 9 years ago since I've uploaded anything on FA. I'm happy that the community is still thriving and anthropomorphic art is still a thing even though it seems at times that we're in the darkest of timelines. I shouldn't be surprised though because furry art has been around for ages, even in the early days of the Internet with news groups where I first encountered it.

When I first started drawing adult art I was such a dork and had no actual frame of reference; the concept of having sexual intercourse was also terrifying to me since I suffered from phimosis at that time (it is the inability to retract your foreskin and is painful AF). Though even if I was a virgin... I was ironically still obsessively interested in sex. E.g. long before sexual education classes at school I already had read heaps of books and other material about it. Sweden, as progressive as it was back in the day, had and still has a big publicly funded organisation for sexual education (RFSU) that probably primed me to be open to LGBTQ, BDSM and other things even though I didn't practice it myself. You'd probably be surprised from all the art I've done so far that I pretty much identify myself as a pansexual yet cisgender man.

I eventually met some furries on IRC to chat and eventually we got bored and started talking about whatever kinks we had. Some were very forward with their kinks, for which I didn't mind given my enthusiastic interest in such. After a while I started drawing whatever they wanted in a program that lets you chat and draw at the same time, an early version of openCanvas. I didn't really post anything until I was convinced (mainly by the person behind Rhianna) to post what I had on FA. Shortly after a couple of geek girls I knew in real life and regularly chatted with got interested in my adult art and wanted me to draw for them as well. Huh, figure that!

It went on for a couple of years and I then got into a relationship with someone I got madly in love with. That relationship later pushed me to finally get an operation to fix the phimosis. Shortly after the wang got healed all up, I had sex for the first time as a 28 year old adult. I can't really tell though if my adult art improved after that. It didn't take a long while for me and my partner to break up, mostly because long-distance relationship we had didn't really work out. I still happily did adult art which I enjoyed doing a lot more than actual sex.

Then things in my life started happening. I had to stop drawing and uploading furry pornography on FA for several reasons:

- Most of the people who were my muses moved on and so did I. We pretty much all stopped being horny online. Occasionally I do get to talk to some of my muses through other social networks or in person on some events (obviously before the Corona virus hits).
- I graduated from the university and had to focus more on my career. It got difficult to keep up with art with work that kept me busy.
- As I started working my mental health started to decline. I got easily depressed, I had periods where I was low on energy and in worst cases I had panic attacks. It would take several years and a stubborn girlfriend (currently my wife) before I got diagnosed for anxiety disorder and eventually ASD. I get treatment for it now, thank goodness.

Will I ever start making adult furry art again? Probably not. I've got other interests now that take up my time and am in general less horny than before... I still enjoy adult art but I'm just too busy to keep up with it, y'know?