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Mental Fatigue
5 years ago
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Hey everybody,
I know I haven't been writing as much as I should be. I've been trying to be consistent, but even then I know the aquatic content has been inconsistent. I have read your notes and believe I'm trying to pump that sort of content out to the best of my ability. I've been needing to write this journal for a bit. One or two of you know already, but I'm just not in it right now. My circumstances have just been really difficult as of late. Been trying to write more loving, venting pieces, but that stuff is really hardly noticed much. I enjoy writing it though and it's been a good emotional outlet so I'm still going to focus on that content.
I have some stuff going on in my home life at the moment that is taking its toll on me mentally and physically. I'm getting maybe 2 hours of sleep a night if I'm lucky. Mentally I've fallen into such a depression that I'm just consistently feeling as though I'm dragging and barely clinging to any real motivation to the point my college grades are actually suffering, where I used to be a stellar academic. The point is, I'm just at my threshold of stress. I'm falling apart physically and mentally. Shout out to
ThrashMetallix and 
Nikolai_Rosnov who have just absolutely been wonderful to me. Even with their support, I think I'm finally just at a point where I need to break from writing for a bit. What was once consistently a relaxing venture has now been a target of my anxiety. No piece feels correct, everything feels absolutely trash upon finishing a story, and on a compulsive level I can't stop trashing more stories than submitting them.
I'm taking an extended break off Furaffinity for a while. I will probably still being faving stuff, responding to notes, but I'm done writing for a little while. Not forever. I just need to get my mental health in order. I've been looking into even possibly checking into a depression clinic or really just finding a shrink at a minimum. I'm tired. I feel like my life is spinning into chaos. I hope you all can understand this break. I so appreciate those who have just really looked into my content lately. Not sure how long this break is gonna be, but I couldn't stay away from this community if I tried, so expect when I recover that I'll be here bringing you guys more of what you love.
I love you all very much. I'll be back when I can.
I know I haven't been writing as much as I should be. I've been trying to be consistent, but even then I know the aquatic content has been inconsistent. I have read your notes and believe I'm trying to pump that sort of content out to the best of my ability. I've been needing to write this journal for a bit. One or two of you know already, but I'm just not in it right now. My circumstances have just been really difficult as of late. Been trying to write more loving, venting pieces, but that stuff is really hardly noticed much. I enjoy writing it though and it's been a good emotional outlet so I'm still going to focus on that content.
I have some stuff going on in my home life at the moment that is taking its toll on me mentally and physically. I'm getting maybe 2 hours of sleep a night if I'm lucky. Mentally I've fallen into such a depression that I'm just consistently feeling as though I'm dragging and barely clinging to any real motivation to the point my college grades are actually suffering, where I used to be a stellar academic. The point is, I'm just at my threshold of stress. I'm falling apart physically and mentally. Shout out to
ThrashMetallix and 
Nikolai_Rosnov who have just absolutely been wonderful to me. Even with their support, I think I'm finally just at a point where I need to break from writing for a bit. What was once consistently a relaxing venture has now been a target of my anxiety. No piece feels correct, everything feels absolutely trash upon finishing a story, and on a compulsive level I can't stop trashing more stories than submitting them. I'm taking an extended break off Furaffinity for a while. I will probably still being faving stuff, responding to notes, but I'm done writing for a little while. Not forever. I just need to get my mental health in order. I've been looking into even possibly checking into a depression clinic or really just finding a shrink at a minimum. I'm tired. I feel like my life is spinning into chaos. I hope you all can understand this break. I so appreciate those who have just really looked into my content lately. Not sure how long this break is gonna be, but I couldn't stay away from this community if I tried, so expect when I recover that I'll be here bringing you guys more of what you love.
I love you all very much. I'll be back when I can.
I appreciate you sharing support. It's a honor by the way. I absolutely adore your work.
We will all be here waiting for more awesome work :)