Hey, everyone needs to check out now and then, especially in the last year or so, reality has gotten a little too uncomfortable to constantly deal with.

It's very good that you keep communicating with your customers though, even during it. :) I don't think people mind when you need to take time out as long as people know you're not disappearing.

As a full time Artist, all I got IS my reputation. Can't fuck that up. I'll be out of work! XP

I've spent most of the last 22 years in that state, so I know how insidious it can be... but sometimes you just have to take time off
don't feel too bad about that, but don't wallow in it like I have.
*hugs* hope you feel better soon

Man hobbies do help a lot. Gaming take my mind into the games and off the real world bullshit and it helps kill the time for sure, but not always healthy. BUT, state of mind is on FOCUS now. Need to get shit done!

I have a LOT of hobbies, about 4 years ago I started to teach myself blacksmithing for making knives
my mistake was in trying to sell them, I couldn't sell water to a dying man in the Sahara desert!

You shouldn't push yourself If you dont feel like you're over it yet. You need dome time to yourself.

I know how depressing all those things are that you told up there.
I also have some troubles with my insulin. good yhing that i just got some, I was nearly run out of my last "longlasting" base insulin and i started to stress out from it. Not to mention that my endorcrinology "kicked" me out from their care because I wanted my insulin be prior authorized instead of needing to change it twice a year when ecer they change the medicines covered by insurance... And they also said that they havent gotten any bloodtest from me in a year even they just took one 3 months ago. *sigh*
And this were also an indian doctor.. I do not have anything against normal peoples that are different race, but doctors, nope nope nope! This is second indian doctor who had wronged me...

stupid thing but what can i do?

Hopefully you'll feel better from all your things that had happened.

Yup... when it is out of your control and someone fucks it up for YOU, man... that is so different. Dependent on people to do the things that will HELP you and you have to pay the price for their bullshit. Hope yours get sorted out soon too!

Had to chance my insulin because it didn't go trough the prior authorization and I had enough only for few more days so I HAD to get the less efficent one. And I'm trying to find new endorcrinology for me diabetes. Just went into operation with my clodded dialysis acces nd now my inner arm hurts. It'll get better eventually I hope.. for everyone that has toubles.

BREATHE
Holy wowsers you're going through a lot.
I believe in you though
Despite everything that you're going through, I am fully confident that you've got this and can get through, manage and conquer every last one of these obstacles that you are going through.

Its okay to be overwhelmed, depressed, upset, sad. Don't be afraid to take a minute to yourself.
Just take stuff one day at a time.
I know you can get through this.
Sending love and support
~BewitchingBeauty

Not really all that sad? Best way to describe it is that you've finally cleaned up your desk, the workload is almost finished and you can sit back, relax and casually finish the rest at your pace until life drops a big pile of SHIT on you and you got a new mess to clean up. My reaction wouldn't be 'sad', it'd be more like... "are you fucking serious?" Toss the desk and take a break. XD

Then I'd come back evaluate the mess and start prioritizing. Doesn't make me sad... just PISSY that I got more SHIT to deal with. I'll manage, it just takes more time now.

It's OK to do nothing sometimes. You can't be "on" all the time or you'll burn yourself out bad.

FOR SURE. Forced breaks are not exactly ideal BUT, what's done is done. Now I just gotta work on it.

Hope you're feeling better!

Better now with plans in action!

Stay awesome, you’ll get through this!

You KNOW I will. ^^

All the way, queen!

Real life takes priority. Get what you need done. We can wait.

Bills don't though XD
Gonna be a balancing act but I'll figure it out!

Keep up the good work

Thanks! I intend to!

It looks like you did well in stopping and prioritizing everything, including taking care of yourself. That can be really difficult to do and I'm glad you were able to manage that. Just keep taking care of yourself, we all need to just shut down every now and then I think.

The only sacrifice that's gonna mess me up is sleep. Timing of it and how much I get of it.
Cause all of the work I gotta deal with is definitely gonna take up a lot of time.

Very true. But don't push yourself too hard or else you could wind up right back at square one. I'm not one of your commissioners (currently), but I would personally rather get my commission a bit later than the artist burning themselves out frequently trying to get it to me quicker. I have commissioned a couple of artists who've done that and had to tell them "Look, this is just taking you longer to get my stuff finished. If you can still do it, great but don't feel like I'm going to take a whip to you for not getting it to me by the end of the month."

This is the right approach: Prioritize the tasks and work through it one by one.

That's how to do it! Can't wallow in worry. Shit is ALWAYS going to happen. Just step back, prioritize, then deal with it.

I mean... we COULD and that's the weird thing, but we DON'T, that's the sad thing. Full time artists do it because they LOVE to draw and the bonus is making money off of it. So every waking moment is doodling some weird shit that came to my head because it brings me joy and it entertains others. So it makes it look like we work... all the goddamn time.... XP