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4 years ago
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█ █ █ █ █ █ █ Sorry I haven't been posted for a while. My motivation has plummeted, and it's killing me on the inside. I can't force myself to draw because then it won't come naturally, and won't be as great.
I admit I'm kind of going through a period of doubt. I really enjoy what I do, but a lot of the time I question the content I make.
As much as I like paws and macro and things, I can't be invested in it as much as others can. I don't want my ocs to just be fetish-fuel, I want to feel free to do things that are wholesome and built upon character development, but I realize if I do it for this audience most of it would go unnoticed.
Don't get me wrong -- I'm still grateful, but I realize the only reason my account is where it's at is mostly because of all the kink art:
Compare the stats of something like this, my first stomp pic: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37355406/
To this: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39315690/
I know, it should be about the art, not the attention. But I can't deny that I still like seeing what kind of people like what I make and watching the numbers grow
And also since I established myself as a fetish artist it limits my interactions, because my content isn't fully "clean". I like lots of regular art I see, but those kinds of artists usually don't like having connections to a fetish artist, which is why a lot goes unfaved and unwatched on my favs.
Obviously a solution could be to just make separate social media accounts for normal stuff, but I really don't want to have to; I like having everything together instead of feeling like I'm hiding a side of myself for one community. And not only that, when the audience of your general content finds your fetish stuff, it's all over. Prepare to be berated and picked on for having something most people have.
We're not forcing anyone to enjoy our kinks, so what is it about non-kink people complaining that it's all hellspawn? You can hate it all you want, but don't assume it's all that makes us up. That also goes for the part of the community who obsesses over it too; we're not just ogling at our desks 24/7.
And as much as I wish I could just grit my teeth and deal with it, I can't yet. Words can still hurt even if you say you're unfazed. Creepers and groomers still try to get what they want (I learned that the hard way last year). People still think everything's black and white.
Does any of this make sense or am I missing something?
I admit I'm kind of going through a period of doubt. I really enjoy what I do, but a lot of the time I question the content I make.
As much as I like paws and macro and things, I can't be invested in it as much as others can. I don't want my ocs to just be fetish-fuel, I want to feel free to do things that are wholesome and built upon character development, but I realize if I do it for this audience most of it would go unnoticed.
Don't get me wrong -- I'm still grateful, but I realize the only reason my account is where it's at is mostly because of all the kink art:
Compare the stats of something like this, my first stomp pic: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37355406/
To this: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39315690/
I know, it should be about the art, not the attention. But I can't deny that I still like seeing what kind of people like what I make and watching the numbers grow
And also since I established myself as a fetish artist it limits my interactions, because my content isn't fully "clean". I like lots of regular art I see, but those kinds of artists usually don't like having connections to a fetish artist, which is why a lot goes unfaved and unwatched on my favs.
Obviously a solution could be to just make separate social media accounts for normal stuff, but I really don't want to have to; I like having everything together instead of feeling like I'm hiding a side of myself for one community. And not only that, when the audience of your general content finds your fetish stuff, it's all over. Prepare to be berated and picked on for having something most people have.
We're not forcing anyone to enjoy our kinks, so what is it about non-kink people complaining that it's all hellspawn? You can hate it all you want, but don't assume it's all that makes us up. That also goes for the part of the community who obsesses over it too; we're not just ogling at our desks 24/7.
And as much as I wish I could just grit my teeth and deal with it, I can't yet. Words can still hurt even if you say you're unfazed. Creepers and groomers still try to get what they want (I learned that the hard way last year). People still think everything's black and white.
Does any of this make sense or am I missing something?
This is extremely relatable, and it hits home very hard. Main reason why I don't upload on here anymore, nor do I bother trying to be a part of any fandom/sub-community anymore, when attempting to diligently balance my presence in multiple spaces has inevitably led to disaster every time over the course of a decade. The world simply never stops, listens, and hears people out. They just make narrow-minded assumptions, and that's it, no way of changing it.
No kidding. None of us should be forced to walk on eggshells just because we are a part of more than one place. I really don't get this mob mentality that if you can't be exclusive to an interest, you can't belong anywhere. And the cycle repeats itself no matter how many times we try to break it
