Honestly, I did not improve much yet. I'm still a mess. And that's no good

I keep telling myself that no one need my words, they just want my art. If I hold commissions that long, any word would be just another excuse
But I just thought it might be good to at least let people know of my status
I try my best to find a solution, which in itself is a procrastination excuse (in other words - googling how to solve a problem when you can just do things and it'll solve itself)
But yeah, unfortunatelly I have this grey matter blob in my head that doesn't let me do what I have to because dopamine is much tastier
I found out some ways to make things better though, one of which is committing into brainstorming with clients, feeling their involving. I should try that

But overall my situation isn't any better at this point. And maybe at some point when my mind will no longer have faith in finding a solution, it'll have no other choice and just stop trying to find any easy way. I mean, I'll do everything I have to, eventually
So yeah, if you still waiting for your commission or YCH, I'm very sorry that you have been unfortunate enough to invest your money and time into me specifically. I try not to feel guilty because it won't change anything but it's hard not to
I may try setting some deadlines for myself later, but for now I don't want to stress myself much since I already experiences several burnouts which again, doesn't help at all

I'm open for a refund if you'd like it more than waiting more. It'll be totally understandable and I'll try to provide the refund as fast as I can
If you'll choose to wait though, I can promise only one thing - eventually, It'll be finished. I know it's not very cheering. I try not to promise what I most probably won't be able to do
That's the news. Hope no one is mad at me, but if someone is, please note me anytime and we'll discuss that, I'm ready to get any punch in my face
Aside from that, stay safe and have a good day