With so much going on for what feels like all the time, I've found it difficult to remain dedicated to most things. Over and over again, I've tried getting back into drawing, as after high school, I'd simply given up on it. I was losing interest in the pony fandom, and that affected my motivation to continue drawing for it, and coupled with the feeling that I sucked at attempting anything anthro simply killed all creative desire. Only in recent years have I been slowly creeping back, dipping my toes into basic sprites for my Pathfinder campaign with the occasional sketch here and there in CSP.

And while it might not be the most revolutionary, ground-breaking thing in the world, completing my sona's reference sheet feels like my first real step into what I see as 'proper' furry art. I constantly shit all over myself and the things that I do to the point where, most of the time, I deny the things that I can do. But seeing an actual, completed work that I'm happy with is kind of my way of proving that this is something I CAN do. That I was wrong to be so hateful toward myself. What most would see as innocuous and part of everyday goingson is monumental for my self-esteem.

So for my own sake, I'm using this as a public declaration to continue with trying to get better, to get back into drawing again. I'd like to be able to not only finally give faces to the multitude of NPCs in my setting but also to take commissions one day. I want to stop lurking and actually contribute something to the community at large. And I guess this is just me saying that I'm going to work toward that.

At present, I want to try and upload something at least once a week. I'm happy with the current art style I've started using, but even then, there's going to be room for improvement.

Amagumo ~ Wet Kobold