So glad that this month is over. It started out great for me (due to my birthday and all), but things started going downhill from there (it all started because of my car accident). Then came some personal issues (on the verge of depression?) then lastly this week, we're in lockdown again. You should read my recent journal about that.

Usually at the last week of March or in the first week of April, we Filipinos celebrate Holy Week, in which Jesus first entered Jerusalem. Usually I'll be travelling and visiting my uncles, aunts, grandparents, and my deceased family members in cemeteries around the country (because, yes, I am Baptist) but I can't do that because of this lockdown and it's just affecting me a lot mentally.

On the bright side, I'm getting back into diecasts again, especially Hot Wheels. Made some new friends on this site and on others, and some other private matters.


For things that I can't stand on this site, there's quite a few. One of them are macros destroying stuff, but I'm fine with normal macro art. I don't really want to kink shame others because I respect what they like but I just dislike seeing stuff like that.

I hope that things are going better! The best advice I can give is to just try to enjoy every minute, and spend each one doing something meaningful. Also, try to think about things that make you happy.

I am sorry about the lockdown, is the virus bad where you are? As you probably know, the USA is handling the virus horribly, so I can’t go anywhere until my second vaccine!

As for “shaming”, I don’t have the same standards as most people, and will make it obvious what I hate. This is more for coping purposes, since I can’t keep everything in, and I don’t have anyone to talk to about this stuff. I can literally say that I like Halo 5 or say that I’m a furry and get hate, but when I criticize things that I view as offensive and inappropriate it’s all of the sudden the worst thing in the world. It just seems like I’m always wrong.

Thanks. Almost every day I don't have any motivation to do anything, I'll often just lay down on my bed and look at the ceiling, not doing anything. Sometimes not even playing my favorite games, which are truck sims, appeal to me anymore. This diecast collecting and other personal matters are currently the only things that's keeping me sane.

The virus isn't really that bad here, it's just our government's poor decisions. The capital was the one who had the most infected, but my city only has a few dozen per week or so. Because of it being the capital, the whole country was affected and we were quarantined again. Our government's decisions also delayed the distribution of the vaccines heavily (because of money) and so I wouldn't be getting vaccinated soon. However, despite all of this, we handle the virus VERY seriously. When going out, you're required to wear a face mask AND a face shield at all times, except in restaurants. If you don't have either of them, police will escort you to a store that sells them.

Well, for that last sentence you said, that happened to me before, but unfortunately, I don't know how to describe it. But it's time to move on from that for the better.

I’m happy that your country is actually taking it seriously, because it seems like no one can comprehend that the virus can be extremely dangerous here. While the vaccine is being distributed here well enough, I’m sure that everyone will be saying that it causes Autism, which kind of hurts, but oh well.

I know how it is feeling like there isn’t a point to anything, I’ve been feeling like that for half of my life to be honest. You just have to enjoy everything you can. For me, I’ve been fighting a problem that shouldn’t exist (same thing), with very little success, but I know that I have too much to offer to give up this early in life. The exact combination of things that you like are unique to you, so it’s important to make the most of it. If you wouldn’t mind me asking, what are the heaviest vehicles that you like, real or model form? Depending on what you are looking for, I think I know something that might cheer you up.

I see, well I don't know what to say but I'm so sorry man.

Well, even if we are taking it seriously, cases are still going up a lot, my city had a new surge of cases just yesterday nd seeing those numbers makes me hesitant to even get out my front door. Oh well, I guess.

Heaviest vehicles that I like? Well obviously I'll be saying trucks, tanks, and planes, but I do like farming machinery as well, especially with combine harvesters, they're awesome machines! From time to time I'll have an interest in ships and ocean liners.

Don’t be sorry, I have to get through this on my own. I read that you don’t want to talk about the pandemic, which I beyond understand.

I was asking about heaviest vehicles because there is a YouTuber called CranesEtcTV (not sponsored), who reviews some of the most impressive diecasts that I’ve seen! I don’t know if that’s something that you’d be interested in or not, but I thought that I’d let you know just in case!

Oh yes! I'm actually subscribed to them! Seeing the different models just makes my mouth drool uncontrollably.

I don’t know how it could happen, but I really want to see Matchbox get the Mammoet license! The models in that livery are way too expensive for me!